I’m 26 and I’ve been using PMO for 15 years, often with videogames or too much time spent on movies, anime and tv series. It’s been a year since I’m aware of my problem and never went past 14 days of nofap. However I keep trying and starting to see little improvement. However I realized I have a problem with my social life, I feel like I don’t give a shit about making friends or knowing girls. It’s like I don’t have the drive. I had few relationships with girls in the past, and I’m sure about about my sexual orientation, however I feel like my emotions and desires are numb. I’m suffering about this because I’m aware that I haven’t got any deep connection with people but at the same time trying to build this bonds feels like I’m faking it.
I’m a sporty guy, take care of myself and often receive interested looks from women but I feel stuck, i don’t answer that. Feel like my life is going on and I’m being a spectator.
I am now more committed than ever to stop PMO and also isolating activities like videogames, tv series, etc… Do you think this will start getting better? I was thinking I should seek some professional advice, but I’m not very conviced.
I’m stuck at home because of the pandemic, busy with uni lectures, so the situation overall doesn’t help me socialiaze. Any suggestions or someone who has been through this?