Hi, I’m freebies 23M. Yesterday when I was surfing internet I came accross a music site when I clicked I was redirected to p site. As images and videos were loading I closed that tab but after that I was feeling some urges. Then I opened YouTube where I saw some videos of bikini women. Please tell if it is a relapse?
Welcome to the Rewire Companion Community!
This is called peeking. It’s when you get urges and look at ‘soft porn’. It’s trying to get a dopamine rush, but not using ‘actual porn’.
By the standard noFap definition, it’s considered edging, and I would advise you to consider it as a relapse. It’s not necessary though, if you don’t peek again in your streak.
Why it’s usually counted as relapse-
- Peeking strengthens the reward system in your brain associated with porn. Our aim here is to break that circuit, not strengthen it.
- Most people relapse after peeking. The urges are too high.
- You feel guilty and use the peek as an excuse to break your streak later down the line.
So if you’re counting it as relapse, a very important thing is not to get disappointed and binge relapse. Stay strong