Remember you are more beautiful than you give yourself. Please always be kind to yourself 
I decided not to relapse today. Let’s see how it feels )
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nice! wish u success
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The journey continues now. I decided to go on for the second day.
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Awesome keep at it brother!!!
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About how it felt not to pmo.
It felt like my brain was itching in the center of it. Like logically saying “go and waste some energy”.
So I did it, but not in form of pmo. I did some gym. And that feeling stopped for 12 hours approximately.
I didn’t do gym today and it’s already nighttime. So the challenge is to sleep for now. Bye 
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Not much to write about this time.
Just depressed a lot and not willing to live any more day.
I’m not waking up for someone or something. If there was a button that ends the life I would not press. The reason is not somebody who loves me like parents or brothers or sisters. I somehow don’t love my parents or relatives. The reason would be just the hope that one day I’ll enjoy that day. If that hope is fake, then I have nothing to lose.
Yeah and about nofap. It was not hard this time.
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hey there that sounds painful -.-
just so you know depression is a very comon side efect of PMO …
you aslo feel less since whzen you are flatlining everything feels less stimulating and your brain actually feels less you dopamine recepters have ben desensetized and there are fewerr of them than there uised to be due to the frequent dopamine shots caused by PMO.
you will feel better soon this passes the depresion passes the feelings and attractions will return.
also that hope is not fake it is very real 
also you can help yourself when flatlining by dancing around ro do other stimulating things like meet people, dance around exercise or read a book so coming down is a bit easier in the begining eventually.
a secret tip make very detailed to do lsits and tick the smallest stuff that you do that will give you a tiony dopamine shot and you get a feeling of achievement also it increases your percieved self effiency
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Something about last 2 days.
So, 2 days ago I relapsed. But I didn’t watch porn, and it’s not because I wanted to check something, but I really didn’t want any porn. What I wanted was some sort of release, not understandable for me. Then I started to think about what was that and I bumped into an article called “brain neural paths” or something like that. So I decided to minimize the usage of everything that was causing high dophamine splash.
The next morning I woke up as usual, but instead of checking the messages and this companion, I put away my phone and went to eat and exercise. I was craving to take my phone and do something with it, not quite clear for me what I really wanted to do. Then I wanted to drink a coffee but I didn’t. Then I was thinking about tea, but I ended up on a green tea. Also I wanted to eat something sweet and chocolaty but I refused. Then I went for classes. After 2 hours I left for a walk. All the way I was thinking about buying that pack of cigarettes, and I couldn’t help it. I went to cafe to eat something. Instead of something meaty, I took pasta with no sauce. Less taste but healthier. Usually I would sit there after eating and watch some Youtube. But I didn’t use my phone yesterday at all, except for calling. I felt like there’s no music around but I didn’t put my earphones on. When I have money I go to bar and choose something to drink but I did not this time. Usually I would get back home and play some videogames and watch some series. But I didn’t turn on my pc. But I couldn’t resist pmo yesterday.
And when thinking about yesterday, I was thinking to myself " Did you notice that you are addicted to every addictive thing that is not forbidden by law?
Coffee
Tea
Music
Video Games
Sugar
Youtube
Social Media
Phone
TV
Alcohol
Cigarettes
PMO…".
I barely avoided these today…
Today I just found my drawing tablet and started to draw, that was it for today. And green tea as well.
It’s so hard boys…
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it turns out I’m a grean tea addict
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We need to create a community to ban green tea where just looking at it you will say that you have a recyclable
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On YouTube in particular, this bastard is worse than PMO
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Congrats Omen .
You are the member of RC now. You are not alone. We fight together here. So anytime if you feel like losing come here . Ask to legends of nofap. Take their advices .
And all the best for now
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Guys help me 
I can’t escape every addiction at once. My patience is not that high. What can I do?
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What do you mean by every addiction.
And even though you have many addictions . Try to give them priority. Which one needs to be handled the most and focus more on the tops if you can’t handle many. 
Feel free to ask
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If you read my previous post here it answers your question.
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Ok . I didn’t read that.
You can use this. But I think you don’t need to control every minor addiction. They just fade away . Your main addictions are
You tube, social media, cigarettes and pmo. So focus on these.
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But I think you don’t need to control every minor addiction. They just fade away . Your main addictions are
You tube, social media, cigarettes and pmo. So focus on these…
True, knock them off one at a time. Eventually the negative effects don’t bug you and addictions go away.
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Something I want to tell to me myself.
I’m sorry that I am this weak and that I’m giving up so easily. I have reasons to give up and those reasons are real and are not made up only by my fears. I’m sorry that I didn’t make a penny this far and that I don’t want to do anything. I’m not interested in anything and don’t blame me. This is where I am and who I am. I’m sorry that I don’t want to exist like this and I don’t want to change anything at the same time. I’m sorry I can’t afford a therapist who probably wouldn’t even change anything. I shouldn’t have been born, but I’m sorry, it was not my decision.
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You are not weak. Just tell yourself you are strong, Just tell your brain that you are not a loser and if you believe in yourself and with God grace you gonna overcome all your addictions.
One more tip - Replace your addiction with an addiction like for an example. If your mind thinks of smoking ciggarettes then replace it by any exercise like skipping up to 500 or 1000.
And the things watching YouTube, Tv, Phone,Listening to Music, Sugar etc
These things are a part of our daily life, you cannot turn down them in just one day. I would like to suggest you to reduce there frequency of usuage day by day. Like if you watch your phone 6 hours a day (on an average) . Then reduce the usage day by day. For instance
Day -1 5:45 hours
Day - 5:30 hours
So on…
Set a goal or timer.
And for YouTube or Tv, just watch when you complete a goal for example - Study for 2 hours them you can watch YouTube for 15 mins
At last and the most 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 -
𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗳𝗶𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝗿 𝗱𝗲𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂
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