Hey guys I’ve been on this app for a year. My problem is lately I can’t keep my hands off myself, and can’t seem to stay away from random chat websites. And I keep fantasizing and having sexual thoughts.
What changed? My life is constant change, huge changes happened in my life since last year.
The latest, I dropped university and going to psychotherapist, this means I’m spending alot of time at house, with my parents. Not socializing in rl with people my age. And therapy is bringing up alot of anger toward my parents, I can’t open up to them, we don’t get each other much, there is tention.
I tried to quit social media, but failed, I don’t like blockers, doesn’t seem like a solution, but forcing myself.
I’ve been trying to understand my problem for a month, I think right now I’m doing no fap for the wrong reasons, I’m not as convinced as I was.
to be honest if I ask myself why I’m doing it, it’s because people around don’t like gays, so I was trying to eliminate part of myself.
Then I realized if I’m doing it I should do it because I want to get better not cause of that,
Even I quit all sexual stuff for life, I won’t be happy if I keep hiding myself from people.
Even if I quit, I want to feel comfortable telling people about my orientations, if I quit I want to do it for more convincing cause ,not because I’m gay.
I’m really struggling with not touching myself, and with random chat websites, were things escalate from there.
Any advice is appreciated