I flunked in college two times. for the first time, I lied to my father and said to him I passed the year. I was trying so hard to pass this year and cover everything up, But now I flunked again.
It’s time for me to tell the truth and I am so affraid. But I already made up my mind to tell the turh. No more lies.
This lie reminds me of a dream I head about rapture and I was left behind because of it. After I had that dream, Something different happend. I felt a sensation on my body, sense of conviction , it was as if every part of my body knew that Jesus’s coming is real and is urgent. started crying and screaming " Jesus is coming! I don’t want to stay here!" , I fell from bed and continued to cry uncontrollably.
That dream was so real as if it was a vision. from that moment on I had the conviction Jesus’s coming is real and not just an imaginary concept to be mesmerized upon. It was 3 am when that happend and I stayed in that state till approximatelly 5 am. Then I decided to tell the truth to my father but my mother said not to do it yet. she told me to wait and try to pass this year first. But now I funked again… even thougn I am affraid, I know I can not keep lying, that’s why I will go ahead and face the consequences of telling the truth.
For me it is more important to be in peace with myself and God.
Don’t let your subconscious think you can’t do these subjects. The more you’ll practice, the more you will see the results.
Also, do tell your parents about the situation in a calm way when everyone has time to listen to you. Hiding will only make it worse. If you pass after telling them, they will feel proud of your honesty and hardwork.
Work hard, if you think you are overwhelmed with current and previous subjects create a timetable efficiently working on your weakness.
Give more to subjects you lack foundation in for now. Go to library, spend 10-12 hours everyday until you are comfortable with and master these subjects.
When I find myself in some situation where I must confess something, I just look into the future and know that “they” won’t be mad at me next year for an example. Next year this might be forgotten especially if you pass. So I don’t care what will happen, I just confess and wait for time to pass bye and boom, everything is back to normal.
Keeping that secret will only cause you fear anyway. Fear is worse. This is my prospective.
better to tell them. Not only will the truth set you free, but you will also be honoring your parents. You telling them is better than them finding out, because trust me, once you lose their trust its hard to gain it back. It takes time and deals unnecessary pain.
Be honest, admit your shortcomings.
But equally important is to tell them that you’re not on the same track and that (especially for your father) you have a plan of action you’re following to avoid the same mistakes.
I know many have already given you advice regarding your father. I want to reply as a fellow Christian who has felt God the way you’re describing. God gives us the conviction and courage to be brave enough to do the right thing in our lives. Without Him, i would have stopped fighting a long time ago. A while back, i dealt with a terrible interior dialogue, and then i had a vision from God like you’re describing. I saw an angel and he asked me why i thought the way i did when God never thought that way about me. And realized He loves me and wants me alive, and i have a purpose. He is very real, and that conviction and peace i felt in that moment was proof. From then on, i have found that if i keep Him in my heart and keep faith in Him, He will take care of me. And He has taken care of me.
So its okay to be afraid, but trust in God and keep going. And that is bravery, brother.
