348 more days to go. 14.5 hrs. Was distracted for a while in middle but not even close to having free time for masturbation. Walked while reading for an hour, to stay physically tired and fit, and not think about fap.
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Keep going on ⌠glory is waiting of you
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12.5 hours today. Talked to girlfriend and made it clear I wonât be there just for her good while she can humiliate me for her insecurity. That I look at other girls, watch porn, masturbate. I am doing none of that now, and mostly wonât even ever be with her anymore. I never want to break up with people, she is good at heart, but I must move away from her. Bad influence, I am starting to hate everything about past life. Got late in sleeping as well.
Off to sleep now. 347 more days to go. Tomorrowâs aim is 12 hours as I am sleeping late
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11 hours today. 346 more days to go. At ease. On time for tomorrow. Will regain my spirit. I donât even feel like flapping anymore. I donât think I ever will, watch porn now.
Firstly, I have removed all sources. I donât have Google chrome or any browser on phone. I use google assistant to find things on phone internet. On laptop, I have locked safe mode on Google chrome. Have banned websites and especially all pictures and videos from all non relevant sites, while I study.
Secondly, my attitude is of hate towards what I did after 4 day streak. Watching porn all the time, just because of one trigger of some lady I had watched. Took whole 4 days of masturbation and then determination to erase that fetish from head, a price I canât afford to pay from now on. Actually, our life can never afford distracted mind and waste of days, but we end up accepting our inefficient life as we have been masturbating all life.
But not now, not ever.
Hard work should be done throughout life if you wanna enjoy life.
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Almost 14 hours today. Gotta sleep soon. 345 more days.
4.5 hours. A needed break or mismanaged timing. I am getting obsessed with timer, I have to change that. I try to see when average turns two days, then turns three then infinity. Takes time everyday. So, even the well intentioned things can make you end up at similar place,wasting time. Got to change that. Good night
344 days to d day
Failed today. Sad. I am sure now, lack of plan for the day causes one to distract around and do all stupid things. I bow down and apologize, it was great 10 days. Now, never.
6 hours today. An outright disorientation of plans. Distraction, uneasiness. Ended up masturbating. Sad about it. My determination is strengthened.
This time of study will be all time lowest from days to come. 343 days to d day
11.5 hours. Great start, morning but got into taking in the presence of mom. I pretend like a philosopher, telling answer to all problems. Bad way of doing things. Got to change it. Sleeping late, will aim at 13.5 tomorrow.
342 days to d day
Joined via the invite link . Thanks 
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okay bro âŚ
I was teaching my parents to use laptop from last one week. Today, my dad asked how to check the websites that I visited last time. I told him to check into history. After a few links, there was porn website. It sickened me,but I felt bad that all of us are often caught into this trap because of it coming directly or indirectly from parents.
What sociologists say is very true. We donât just inherit parentsâ property, but also way of life. So,in a way, child is constrained by limits that have constrained their parents as well. Itâs very difficult to break open the social divide and come out as a self made, success. I am an adult now,I watched much porn as a child even before reaching 18, my tendencies have only reduced with age after reaching legal age.
I never want to see myself as my dad and expose my kid to pornography through me. This is minimum standards of parenting, I might become someone influential, but if I am not successful in this aspect as a parent, I will consider it a failure.
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5 hours today. Lacking proper plan and having superhuman aims are the loopholes.
Absolutely Brother ⌠same incident happened with me.
12 hours yesterday. Getting better. Trying to calm urges is important. Itâs like brain days itâs nothing serious, but then almost forces one to try opening some vulgar picture somehow. But last experience has told me, only through fighting these urges can one concentrate and gain confidence. Embrace the pain, like in exercises.
339 days to d day
Touched 14 hours again. Going to sleep now. Controlled the urges, feeling content, like building up for the final consistent effort.
338 more days.
Take life simple. Talk to people, be happy. Studied for only 8 hours, but apart from that, wasted 2 hours on masturbation. Going to sleep now. Today I am strangely relieved, I donât feel guilty in religious sense, but feel bad for time lost. Yet, now I am relieved, and focused.
Oh, I forgot to tell, today the cum was yellowish, I donât feel not masturbating is good in itself and want to see a doctor first. Even right now, I am having burning sensation in place where I was having pain during no fap for ten days. Itâs scaring me.