Navosh's Diary - For building an inspiration for people to look upto

Do you smoke ?..

No bro, I am living completely clean life from last one year. I had never smoked, but donā€™t drink or eat non veg or fast foods now.
I workout in morning for 40 mins. I used to masturbate a lot, like 2 times everyday, before.

Non masturbation had helped me stay energetic and in workouts. It improves aggression, that I have seen. And helps me in pushing myself. I want to continue, but I donā€™t know if I have done some damage already and non masturbation may aggravate it.

Then visit a doctor burning sensations should not last for more than hour. And also if you are feeling any kind of continues pain then bro visiting a doctor is the best thing you can do ā€¦ Nofap is not the universal solution for all of your sexual problems ā€¦

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I feel like going insane. Keeping upto goals is critical. I am failing. Again and again. Not even able to sleep on time. Donā€™t know hot to rewire the while damn life. I feel sad, but I also feel that I never feel sad enough to deeply change myself. I just do waste of time, with porn or without. Itā€™s hurtful.

Can you explain this.

You already have answers to all of your questions ā€¦ All it takes is you to stand up and be the man ā€¦ I already wrote it on the message board earlier
That stop seeking for different different ways to fight i had seen people saying that whenever urges come do pushups etc etc ā€¦ But man i am telling you i tried everything and always failed coz those tricks only works for once or twice and then everything fails .

You know what you have to do block everything that triggers you and then dont even try to unblock any of those ā€¦ stand up and be the man .

A real man always concentrate on his future he wants to suffer in his present so that he can enjoy his future .
And loser wants momentary pleasure in his present , waste his time and energy on porn .

What kind of person you want to be ???

Answer it and then do what it takes to be that person.

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Today was better. I am feeling like getting mature slowly and handling things. I had good sleep, so they probably helped. Study was hampered ,by household things like mon dad etc. But better than before.

334 more days, need to remain focussed now neither chilling around in happiness or doing nothing to get depressed at the end. Good sleep.

I talked to doctor about my pain. He said I have prostatis, so he advised me some medications for immediate relief and self control on excessive masturbation along with ensuring masturbation once a week, without porn, to prevent fetish of doing it again and again.
He said, much of impact of nofap is psychological,so if you are comfortable doing it, your body will respond positively and if not, you might have problems but most of it is in your head either way.

About prostate cancer and maaturbation
Prostate Cancer happens much later in age, the people on no fap need not be afraid of it. Even if you remove prostate at age of 50 accepting higher prostate risk among non masturbators in 20s, nothing much will change sexually (you can still have sex but making babies is complicated though not impossible even then) So donā€™t worry about that hue and cry.

I feel I have wasted my life masturbating, will no fap help:
There is a dangerous trend of replacing will power to control sexual desire with abstention (eradication of desire). He said, non masturbation is not the answer to lifeā€™s problems, self control is.
Excessively doing fapping has impact on tiredness, but not doing it ever and doing it once a week is similar.
Again, more impact is of how you view masturbation, if you feel guilty for spiritual/religious reasons, relief provided by masturbation will be overcome by sadness you impose on yourself.

Sex vs Masturbation
Sex and masturbation are sort of same for your sexual organs, so donā€™t have that image that while not doing masturbation will help, doing sex is ok as itā€™s different. The difference is again on your mind and psychology, sex is mutual it connects you with someone, masturbation cuts you off and makes you physically tired and unwilling to socialize both mentally and physically, if done in excess. Both act as stress reliever if done in control otherwise there are problems with doing both of them in excess.

I am back. I am trying to control masturbation to once a week, while totally abstaining from porn. In other headlines, I have sort of lost my timetable routine today , sleeping late, planning to wake by 4am. Itā€™s winters and Diwali, today I studied barely for 5 hrs. But not so from tomorrow.

Rage and serenity. This place is so much full of negativity. I failed and I couldnā€™t face myself because of the manner in which such things are treated. I will not beg for appreciation, upvotes and thus make things extra emotional than they are.

My aim is to have control over life, think of sex only when needed, like when being with a girl. And not while I aspire for hard work. But I have failed. But I accept it entirely as my fault and weakness. I have an addict mindset, when I compete for studies, I get insane for it. When I am doing for fitness, I do that. And same happened for masturbation.

I donā€™t think there is any problem is someone is masturbating once in a week or month. Why do people have so much fetish for day count. The world doesnā€™t care how much you masturbated less, if you are failing in things that matter. Masturbation, Sex, Porn should not inhibit you from achieving full proficiency. But just making no masturbation as a goal for success has actually made it worse for me.

Rebuilding my peace. Next 200 days are crucial. I will do everything under my strength to not get loose on focus.

The idea for this diary was, to see myself working hard and when I succeed, look back at the struggle.

So I am cutting back on everything else, my only priority is get the calm of my mind. And focus. I donā€™t know why it is so hard.

However, now I will maintain a personal diary. I think thatā€™s risky. Seeing that after a limit I will feel shy of doing terrible things and writing here, same might not be true there.

But ultimately I want to take my life under my control. Even knowing that I am on my own, might play a small positive impact.

I read thru your journey @Navosh thanks for sharing it!

Exemplary effort youā€™re putting up man. Itā€™s highly enviable. I lend you my support brother.

Donā€™t suffocate yourself to success. Ambition is one thing, but in reaching a goal, donā€™t lose yourself along the way. Too much self-sacrifice is a real thing. Beating yourself up does nothing but hurt you and others thru you. Keep up to your mark, stay honest to your true ideal, and fuck off with any person or thing that comes in your way to take you down, especially yourself. Iā€™m speaking from personal experience, having done the exact opposite of what I just professed, Iā€™m well aware of it when I see it happening in others too.

Whatā€™s your code? Please share. And add me too. Iā€™m moving up in this world too.

Godspeed bro,
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I was on verge of fap as I felt my productivity is reducing, I went for a walk and allowed my brain free (I felt it was a weakness), to my surprise, my mind was afraid of going back to that life. I was still low, so I gave myself a break just talked on social things with mom. I was motivated, with how many things are wrong in the world and people are suffering. That is the adrenaline rush my brain genuinely wants, not the helpless kidā€™s only comfortable corner.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3050060/
Impact of pornography on brain

This article saved me today. While there are conflicting studies about role of masturbation, there is no conflict about porn addiction.
Porn alters stimuli to your brain permanently. Change it. Slowly, as the habit has built up. Focus on brain, not hand. Retrain your brain to not get that stimulus seeing words like fetish, ebony, bhabhi, cuckold. You will find peace. If you feel itā€™s important to masturbate, do it, but for health not for desires. You canā€™t have two brains fighting inside and then go to wars of real world.