My Study to Improve My Life: Reflections and New Habits

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[22 M] Nuovome’s Journal -

Hello everyone,
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Today, I want to share my personal study on how removing pornography from my life might benefit me and what improvements I can expect. I’ve been watching ■■■■ for many years, practically since I can remember. For a long time, I consumed it up to three times a day with full PMO. About four years ago, I started trying to quit, and although it has been challenging, I’ve made some progress.

For instance, I once managed to go a full month without watching it. However, after that month, I relapsed, and my

consumption decreased to once a week for about four months. Unfortunately, in recent weeks, I’ve been relapsing more frequently. Even though I have a regular sexual relationship with my girlfriend and geting nudes from her, I still feel drawn to ■■■■.

Lately, after watching ■■■■, I’ve felt pretty bad. The stress of exams, assignments, and university projects has increased the frequency of my relapses. I’ve noticed how ■■■■ affects my relationships: I find my girlfriend less attractive and start noticing other women more, which makes me undervalue my relationship.

I want to take some time away from ■■■■ to clear my mind and see how it helps me manage my time, especially in stressful moments. I tend to lose 5 or 6 hours watching ■■■■ on a “day off,” instead of studying or focusing on my responsibilities.

My goal is to conduct a study on how removing ■■■■ impacts my life, including improvements in areas like self-confidence, something many people talk about but I haven’t fully experienced yet. That month I didn’t watch ■■■■ (although I cheated by watching hentai and reading erotic stories) did make me see my girlfriend as much more attractive, almost like a model.

From now on, I’m committing to new habits to improve my life. I’m going to take cold showers, meditate, ensure I get at least 8 hours of sleep, and regularly read or listen to audiobooks.

I’ll be documenting my progress and sharing my reflections here. I hope my experience can serve as a reference for those interested in exploring how certain habits can positively impact their well-being.

Thanks for reading.

P.S.: It is quite possible that I speak very explicitly about my privacy. Is there a problem with that? Is it allowed?

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Now my back hurts because of the position I was in watching pornography, anxiety because I haven’t studied all day since I have a lot of exams, some pressure in my head, and eye pain.

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Now im feeling depressed

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Welcome. Stay down and u loss or get up and fight and u win

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Day 1

Today i woke up with a really bad headache and my eyes hurt

Despite that I had a very good day and I saw my girlfriend very cute

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Day 3

I think it’s going to be very difficult for me to relapse for a while, I installed blockers on all my devices, I’m full of work that I have to do, I have a trip soon. Blockers are saving me a lot.

Unfortunately I lost like 9 hours watching Instagram reels, just memes. But I lost a lot of sleep time and hours to be able to work, I’m going to try to improve that aspect. Sometimes I get bored and I deactivate the option to limit the use of Instagram to 30 minutes, before doing that I’d rather play a video game for a while until I get bored, it’s less addictive and I feel like I make better use of my time with that.

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Day 0 again.

I didn’t relapse by watching pornography again, it was watching hentai or cartoons for almost an hour but not so explicit. However, I count it as a relapse because I don’t want to consider that this type of practices are acceptable for the person I want to become. I made my blocker stricter, but I see that I always try to dance on the limit of the blocker or test what it can and cannot block, I’m going to try not to waste time with that, the blocker is a last resort, I’m the one who must leave the cell phone in case I feel like PMO.

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I only lasted 4 days, my new rule is not to masturbate with any screen nearby

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