My previous months
By writing about my previous months, I hope that it will help you to be aware and find help
My previous 2 months were very bad. Constant daily relapses and failures. Sometimes it happened several times a day.
I failed today too, losing a 3 day streak with it
That strange because I have a lot of plans and dreams for the future. I started to plan my future (my future, my ambitions)
I have a lot of hobbies and I have a lot of things to do:
-I learn to play the guitar
-Learn German with Duolingo sometimes
-I learn the rules of the road
-started to run (I try to run as many times as I just can)
-Time with my love
I failed 14 times in this month
I am sick of it, but this is not a new thing. I think it has become a bad habit.
I think I am lucid, but when the urges come it destroys everything.