Hi. There’s a quote by Albert Einstein (not sure he’s the one that actually said it though) that goes:
Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over Again and Expecting Different Results
Eventhough these last few months has gone quite well, I’m still here, and I’m still relapsing.
So I have decided that it’s probably kinda stupid to keep doing what I’m doing.
So I started to collect data by filling a worksheet. Know thou enemy as they say.
In this worksheet I log my progress on a daily basis. I have my urges on a scale from zero then to
If I masturbate I colour code it from green to red. Green is mindful masturbation without fantasizing at all. Yellow is still mindful masturbation, but with some fantasizing and red is when I just fap away with the brain filled with porn.
I do the same for porn, green is clothed pictures, yellow nude pictures or clothed videos and red is porn. I also have a columns for sex with and without ejaculating.
By filling this form every day I can track my behaviour and learn more about how I work.
I have also noticed that by doing this I know which days I need to be more careful.
Hope this can help someone
Peace and respect