call me mrrobot. This is my NF diary. As I am writing this, I am currently on day 7. Since I am 16 years old I have a strong addiction to PM(O). In the past 12 years I really never considered myself to be “addicted” or to be a “junkie”. However, after I accepted my addiction a couple of weeks ago I see the world in a different light.
This diary will document my journey. My goal: never relapse ever again. I know from other diaries in this forum that this is almost impossible, but the journey matters, not the goal. I invite you to stay a while and listen to my words, they might be demotivating, motivating, inspiring or boring. My main motivation to get rid of this addiction are several things: I am suffering under PIED (while in a relationship), I want to improve my self-esteem and I want to get rid of the constant brain-fog which lets me forget important things other people tell me. (like appointments, conversations etc.)
The past seven days have been more quiet than I would have expected. Almost no urges (which makes me think that I am currently flat-lining after the last PIED accident). I am going to the gym again and my daily meditation helps me to focus and to go to bed early. (instead of gaming until late-night I listen to a meditation in bed).
See you anytime soon - I have a busy evening!