@debellator Thankyou for your kind words! 
actually I am trying to follow diet pattern prescribed by Satvic Movement channel. You can check it out.
Otherwise if you do intermittent fasting you can eat anything.
But when you eat is more important and how much.
I eat carbohydrates only once a day. That means a big portion only once a day at midday.
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@Martial_Beast Thankyou for your inspiring words 
Good that you are practising that.
Plz keep sharing something new and let us learn too.
All the best!
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@JumpingBuddha Yeah I heard about the Nobel Prize. Crazy!
People need first proof then they practice.
Sometimes practice first is required to prove something. 
Thanks for your insight!
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Day 7 : Don’t hate Po##
Yeah I said it. But before you only read the heading and be fast in your judgement… Hear me out!
Coz I have a CONFESSION!
I am a divorced man. I was married. I didn’t had kids because my wife didn’t want children. She wanted only s**. I don’t know she loved me or not but I really loved her. 
. I even went against my parents to marry her. I didn’t tell them. We were happily married since 18 years. At first, she was amazing. I thought she was the best thing in my life. I was too glad to find her in my life and I didn’t want anything more.
She didn’t care if I was successful or not. She didn’t even care if I had a job. She just wanted me to be with her and make love.
But I was a spiritual man.
“Every criminal has a bad future and everything saint had a bad past”
I was not a criminal nor a saint. I was a common man who just loved his wife. Till…
I got to know that she was promiscuous. Not only she cheated on me, later I found out she didn’t care. She never cared. She just acted. She was a very good actor and I was a fool. At last, she destroyed me but still I had feelings for her.
I went back; knowing she doesn’t love me anymore. I wasn’t even sure if it was love or not. May be it was just Lust because I read once, “No one can give you true love in this world”.
I believed it and then I experienced it. It was true.
One day, after so many disrespectful situations, I left her. For good. My good.
Now I live alone and I am happy. No I don’t hate her.
I just have indifference now. She doesn’t matter to me anymore.
My heart is special. I can’t hate her and give her my heart. You can love or hate but in both situations you have to give your heart.
Indifference is always better than hate.
It is more painful but heals very fast.
I don’t hate.
Modernmedico
CC: zj2me7
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Day 8 : I’m writing it late
I travelled back today to my home and am too tired to write anything but a habit should become a good habit.
Now, today I can feel the struggle inside me. Now the mind has started it’s schemes. I know it will keep hammering me till I give up.
I haven’t till yet and I have not planned to do that so early.
I enjoy a good fight too. 
Modernmedico
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Relapsed and back
Day 4
Day 4
I don’t like to start from zero. I relapsed few days after my last entry.
Then it was down the hell lane. Relapsed… again & again… till I could catch my breath.
I’ll tell you what happened in between
We all have one problem. But the ROOT cause is different.
Till last time I was trying very hard not to fap or watch ■■■■ that I was focusing very much attention on them including this app. It was the first time, I was new and excited. So I hung out here. I didn’t need to be.
I tried many things like every other brave person who is fighting for a good cause. I tried physical things like exercise and mental things like watching motivatonal videos or reading books. But somewhere I new my problem was deeper.
The last relapsed proved that.
The root cause of my problem was more spiritual than psychological. So the motivational videos and stuff weren’t going to do good in long term. Plus I was focused on retention. Only retention.
When you don’t know what you’ll do of the tremendous energy you are retaining in your body. When you don’t have a goal and a good usage of this energy, you’ll relapse.
Although I was doing productive things, I couldn’t help myself but relapse at the end. I don’t worry about the relapse. I worry about the CHASER effect that comes after we relapse. After that you can’t stop till it’s enough to make you come back to point zero. And I hate point zero.
But things are never same.
I researched… contemplated…contacted… Finally I knew. Nothing can save me if I don’t deal with the root problem. I started doing spiritual research. I read about impressions in mind, negative energies and how they affect us, dark entities and how they manipulate us…
Point is, I have decided one thing. From now on…
I will take it as a “relapse” if I don’t do meditation or any other spiritual practice, not if I fap or watch unwanted videos. I’ll reset the clock if I fail to meditate.
Because spiritual problem can only be counteracted by spiritual solutions.
Peace 
Out.
modernmedico
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Day 5 - Deja vú
Hey I think I wrote on day 5 already…wait… yeah, that was before relapse.
So what changed?
I don’t know really. Just some things. I stopped watching TV and started meditating regularly.
would it help this time or would you like to have more Deja vú?
Hmmm… tough question! Very tough critics. Actually I really don’t know. _I cross my heart and hope to dieee, if you stay with me (not singing Maroon 5)…nop.
On a serious note : I will give my best this time.
what I did today?
Well I woke up, brushed my teeth, sat on my sofa thinking of going back to sleep… Oh… You mean any retention related thing?.. Right.
I did sound meditation on my favorite guitar player.
Check it out. Play this on your headphones and sit down on meditative pose. You don’t need today’s dose of cocaine.
I went to forest. Nature calls.
I am yet to do my yoga session.
And I thought it would be easier than Gym workout…
Today’s thought- The real struggle starts when you choose to be a celibate. World will be going to be more s3x favourable in future. You have to flow opposite the flow. Because celibacy doesn’t stop after getting married and it is not an option but a choice we have to make now or later.
Peace Out !
modernmedico
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Keep going brother. Your posts are very deep and insightful and I am sure many will benefit from them.
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Day 6 - A humble secret
Sorry guys I am posting it late. Yesterday I didn’t get the time. But I wanted to share something.
Yesterday I didn’t do anything special except maintaining my meditation streak (coz I’ll count it as a relapse if I don’t do it. This makes me consistent.)
This is a post I wrote just now :
That’s the secret. We have to be “Humble”. I’ve seen people arguing on this forum, other forums and YouTube. They try to show to each other about how much they know, creating negative energy around themselves and the people who read or listen to them.
Keep in mind that the Universe don’t like it when we become egotistical. It then plans ways to break our egos. And it does.
No one who is egoistic can remain on his streak for a long time. His ego will make him relapse because the moment he’ll think he has won and become loose, he’ll get caught like a fish in a net.
You won’t see a 1000 day streak person not humble. The higher they go, the more humbler they become.
So please, we all learn from one another. A teacher is always a student.
Peace Out.
modernmedico
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The secret is out!!
Thats so true 
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Wow… Truer words have never been spoken before in this forum
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Day 8 - The secret of the ‘humble’ secret
Yeah I skipped the post of day 7 (Won’t be skipping meditation though ). I won’t be writing daily, can’t promise myself that. But I’ll write, to express and to learn.
I didn’t do meditation the whole day till few hours before. I am writing after doing it. It’s hard to meditate in evening but life doesn’t always give you choice.
Today my mind slightly went towards unwanted thoughts. Thankfully, I didn’t act upon it and changed my thoughts.
One of the main important point of retention is “re-direction”. I learned that form a YouTube video & it helped.
1)When unwanted thoughts come, change them to productive ones.
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But first " Say out loud " what you want to do.
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Then, don’t stay on productive thoughts. Act immediately.
What helped is also, that I started cleaning my room. Washed the dishes while contemplating what is important- indulging in pleasure or doing what is important?. Then I took bath. Bath cleanses not only your body, but your aura too. Your negative energies.
“One who doesn’t take bath regularly will have hard time maintaining his streak”. I have experienced this a lot.
Then I burned Sage in whole house & did my thing (Meditation of course).
The secret of the secret :
The key to being humble is free yourself from the idea that you are the enjoyer. You are not the King. You are in this world to do service. You are here to serve.
I know it’s hard to accept what I’ll be going to say but stay…
The moment we have tendency to enjoy, we exploit. Not only we exploit ourselves, our time. We exploit our loved ones too. We become selfish. We become egotistical.
We have to lose our tendency to think that we are the enjoyers. It’s hard to do before understanding the concept & I can’t explain fully in this post.
I am going to share a video of my favorite YouTuber. Uncle C
Also check out this video to understand further:
Peace✌ Out
modernmedico
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Day - 11 - Humility is not begging
So last two days were difficult. I was alone and with high speed internet. If that wasn’t enough, I was feeling little excited.
History shouldn’t repeat itself, although it does.
But it didn’t… yesterday. I am back on track. Thanks to the Universe for creating diversion when I needed it.
Usually I write in the night, but today I am writing this while sitting in the train. I am doing a journey within a journey.
I was on a verge of relapse because my meditation went down since 2-3 days due to some unwanted situations.
I am afraid that my forced routine is not allowing me to retain more energy within the body. However, I am liking the slight uneasiness.
I had heard somewhere “This slight uneasiness is actually the happiness arising within our body but we cannot understand it and think is as a negative thing and we want to get rid of it because we are not accustomed to bear that high energy in our bodies”.
I don’t share my routine because right now I don’t have any. I am still finding stability because everyday is different. No one place, no one time. That’s why I do meditation. I can do it anytime and anywhere I want.
Coming to the point of the title:
I have seen many guys begging for points and saying please a hundred times.
For the sake of the humility, don’t be confused with that guys. It’s called “neediness”.
They just want someone to show them sympathy so that they can justify themselves that what they did was not wrong.
Although it is not wrong to fail & relapse but you have to understand that your understanding has to do with you, not with others.
There’s another word for it " Entitlement ". Trust me, as a doctor I know what I am talking about. Psychology is my thing.
Entitled people think that just because they suffered pain, they are now entitled to the sympathy of others- they need a special treatment. This makes them not take their responsibility in their hands.
Please don’t beg for likes or points. People can surely give you 100 points but I am sure that you can’t reach 100 days streak based on those points.
External factors can’t change internal factors and change comes first from within.
This is not humility. A beggar is not humble he has to be humble outside because it is needed for him. Be humble from inside. For you. Don’t beg and don’t boast.
The only begging is allowed is for the blessing of God, Spirit, Divine Mother or Higher being… whatever you call him.
Peace✌ Out
modernmedico
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Keep writing, keep motivating, keep learning…
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Day 12 - Pain is good
Today I’ll talk about pain because I got it yesterday & today, very fresh, not physical but mental & emotional.
Mostly in our age it comes in relationships & in my case it was no different. And it was not the first time either.
It hurts a lot and makes you sad but pain is good:
It keeps us sharp.
It dispells the illusion we are always in.
It refocuses us on our goals.
It tells us what is important & what is not.
It roots out our weaknesses and gives us strength.
It makes us humble.
It makes us to go more deeper within ourselves.
& all these things help us in our JOURNEY.
I tried to do meditation today but it was very hard to do. But I did a lot of physical activity and completed a lot of pending work.
It’s wonderful how semen retention saves your energy and gives it back to motivate us to do things.
Peace Out
modernmedico
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Day 1- I know my miskate and I am so sorry
I relapsed again. After 17 days. But the setting was set on day 15.
I improved. Better than last time but I know it’s not gonna cut it.
I have to take a leap of… not faith but accountability.
That’s what I was missing. I was feeling not accountable for anything I was doing.
Problem is although I have some awesome guys following me and I following them. But on the way we somewhere lost being each other accountability partners.
We don’t ask why someone is relapsing when they relapse. We don’t tell someone that we are going to relapse. It’s like struggling alone again.
I am sure I’m gonna find a way around it and somehow find an accountability partner. Not partners. With whom I can do this journey. With whom I can speak or write to daily.
This would mean that I would know I have to answer. I have to take responsibility.
Responsibility and accountability is what I need.
Peace 
Out
modernmedico
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No Clothes??
Starting out again
Hey guys! As people say, “Out of sight is out of mind” . I must say that I was literally out of sight for months. May be some of you won’t even know if I am there…losing and struggling… and again trying like most people.
Anyways…there were times when I thought I’ll reach 90 days of Nofap first and then I’ll write something. Because then people will hear me and respect me.
Then again I forgot that I was doing this for myself… Not for others. Now I am back to the point where I think, even if it’s the first day Or day 0 you would say, I must write, even if no one will read because it’s me converting my thoughts to words, to tangible reality, so that I could track myself more.
Why I relapsed so many times???
As I already mentioned before, my problem doesn’t lies in mental plane, if it did, I could have dealt it better.
My problem is more SPIRITUAL than mental. I’ve come to realize it more last night.
Last night was nothing special as it has happened many times before but it’s not common because it doesn’t happen to everyone.
So what happened last night??
I was forced to remove all my clothes while I was sleeping by some force or something. You can say entity or energy, whatever. I didn’t see it, just felt it before even I went to sleep.
Sounds scary right. Bear with me…
I has happened before also. Many times. I go to sleep and suddenly I am half awake knowing that I start undressing till I am completely naked under the blanket. Then comes a thought (like an implanted thought) in my mind that I should watch Po** or a sudden urge to masturbate. As my conscious mind is not working at that point my WILLPOWER is useless.
Then I am a Robot doing things which I am said to do. I can hear someone back of my mind screaming “_WHAT ARE YOU DOING?? NO!! _”. But I can’t help it. I am not in control.
I don’t have any pressure on my chest or body. Nor I feel someone grabbing me or holding me on physical plane. I just feel that hold on my mind. As if someone has hacked it.
The more I determined I go to sleep not to fap on next day the more forceful resistance I get on that night and the more I am urged to do that thing.
Although I am practicing spirituality my whole life, I think this energy is more monovalent and dark than normal. It doesn’t show itself because it doesn’t need to. I am not that strong to resist. It knows my weak points.
But I know what happens when I resist. I don’t have WET dreams when I stop. I have NIGHTMARES, sleep paralysis. They are reduced in frequency but never gone.
Now I can feel it before I go to sleep that I’ll get a nightmare or not. It’s not a thought. It’s a feeling. An emotion.
Yesterday I was astonished by the power which forced me to watch Po** because on auspicious day of Diwali I wanted to put an end to my PMO addiction but I guess I have to go for a war lest a fight. And something tells me it will me messy.
It won’t depend on special days, special promises or special time. I know I have to take different measures now.
I am open to discussion if anyone had gone through similar experiences like I have.
And this is just a starting.
I’ll be revealing more about my nightmares in upcoming posts.
Bless me with wisdom and wish me good luck! It’s day 1.
Modernmedico
Peace out
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