[mdaradee] An important life journey diary

Day 3 today im happy with my progress and im looking foward to this life changing journey
im taking it one week at a tym n my challenge is 7 days n so many after that
my goals are
1 to completely conquer n recover from this porn and masturbation addiction for good
2 be the best person i can be n connect with my inner child
3 to be able to dream again…have hopes dreams and goals not fantasies
4 work on my self physically n improve my physical appearance by doin daily work outs and goin to the gym, dressing well having regular haircuts
5 to get rid of my social anxiety and get my self esteem and my confidence back
6 to be able to commit to a relationship with a girl n be happy with her
7 improve my education and work on my engineering carrier
8 find true happiness and stop running from my problems to porn
9 improve my mental health and get my old intelligent and creative old self
10. be the best person i can be by the end of this calender year someone i can be really proud of if i was to meet my self in the street by year end
I hope to someday be a responsible father, loving husband and successful engineer and to make this dream a reality porn must go from my life
i need your help n support in this journey please help in whatever way you can to make this dream a reality

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I’m with you. You are protected and supported.

Create you self and your future as intended.

Peace

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Thank you for that…8 guess ky biggest challenge has been havin no one who really understands the situation and what im goin through and now this platform has offered that…im new so any tips, solid plan and failsafes in this will be really appreciated

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This is an awsome list! :100:
Good luck on your journey! :muscle:

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Beautiful, make sure you don’t loose your will along the journey. Stay active :+1:

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on day 5 today… yesterday was particularly very hard had this very strong urge and i nearly gave up several times during the day but by remembering im not alone and what porn gas cost me in this life i made it
my mistake was not keeping up my commitments n not doin the things on my to do list thats another trap for me
i have to keep busy and be strong i will get through this and come out a better man

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Good advice will keep that in mind

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Brother @mdaradee now that you’ve taken the decision that porn is out of your life don’t look back. There will be days where you’ll feel like shit, doing nothing else. Be very careful about those days bro. I know I’ve been through those days and still going through them. Accept the pain. Only through struggles you’ll get stronger. Make improvements everyday.
Do meditation, affirmation, exercise etc daily without fail. Get disciplined. Build yourself up again and never look back.
Above all follow you passion. Focus on the most important things that you’ve always wanted to do in your life.
BEASTMODE :muscle::muscle::muscle:

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Thanx @Tagore for the support brother it’s easier when there are people like you who understand what im going through because you have been there
I will not look back and im giving it my all not giving up
Beast mode​:muscle::muscle::muscle:

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day 6 and counting
i hve realized that i need to make my recovery a way of life not a challenge or a target
Take it really seriously as my life depends on it otherwise i won’t make
there has been better days snd worse days but im starting to believe i can actually be free from this and get to a day where porn is a thing for the past

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@Tagore brother when you said affirmation what exactly is it im a little lost not familiar with that

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It literally takes you 2 seconds to Google a word. If you’re to lazy to educate yourself, your will power and aspiration is to weak. Develop more responsibility and put effort in your education.

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Im avoiding the int8 these days and social networks until further notice

@mdaradee it is the most effective habit to create new beliefs into your subconscious bro. You have to repeat a sentence everyday 5-10 times a day for months. If you are afraid when in social groups, say : Iam becoming confident. Iam happy and cheerful. Like that. Check out some youtube videos for quick knowledge. I suggest check the videos of Seth Alexander. He is a famous youtuber for nofap

a week gone the 1st of many
feeling really goon abt myself and i know i can achieve anything i set my mind to
im doing workouts everyday in the morning and evening
not taking my phone to bed
keeping busy through out the day
not using any social networks
the only thing haven’t got right so far is studying
having strong urges sometimes but duin workouts and this application helps a lot
going to get myself some ice cream with friends to celebrate this milestone
giving up is not an option

Day 9 for me that’s progress for and im keeping it up
feeling really good about myself for i know i can beat this thing
i have the urge and im handling them well enough
They are toughest in the evening especially when i sleep late and in the morning when i wake after 7
the solution is to make sure i don’t take my phone or pc to bed i use them on the sitting with everyone present and leave them there when everybody is present
i wake up before 7, do my workouts and use the phone after thats helping a lot
but still the urges are there and they are times they come on really hard that i get so close to giving in
is there a time it gets really easier, will i ever be in control or is it going to be a constant fight through out this journey?

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No bro, urges will pass. For me till day 47 strong urges were there. Now it has reduced, they are very weak and Iam very strong now :wink:. But Iam not over-confident. Over-confidence is also very dangerous. Many of our brothers reach 90 days streak think that the addiction is conquered and will go binge. That is the saddest thing in life. It will take us back to square one.
Keep going bro. Stay strong. Life is a precious gift from God. Be very serious about your life and goals.

Day 11 today and im just getting started
im not going to allow pmo to dictate my life and control me
8 yrs of this i am done now it’s time i live mylife to the fullest
the past few days have been great baby steps to finding myself again.
they have been hard but i know there is light at the end of the tunnel
thanks to this forum and your support im doing well
giving up is not an option

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