What are my thoughts as of now?
I just joined no fap on account of a simple reason of being stuck in my journey. It’s been roughly two months since my streak and I feel now I am reaching a stalemate. have also started exercising which is kind of increasing my desire to masturbate. Thankfully, the urge to watch porn has disappeared but my mind fog persists and I would like to do a complete overhaul/metamorphosis if possible i.e. change lifestyle and stop masturbating both.
One particular difficulty is that my mind cannot distinguish between liking for liking and liking for sexual gratification. I steer clear of male company to keep myself sane and prevent such thoughts. But I hope to reverse this and become a better well rounded person in the future.
Name - Priya
Nickname - Baarish
Changes signals (To be used)
Red - No change
Orange - Slight not pivotal
Yellow - Somewhat
Green - Good
Changes I have seen until now include
Time duration - 2 months
1). Heightened sense of being (in the moment) - Yellow
2). Ease of interacting to opposite sex - Orange
3). Increased energy to do other things - Yellow
4). Less sexual thoughts - Red
5). Overall happiness - Yellow
6). Reduction in urges - Orange
7). Mind fog - Red
8). Distinguishing between sexual desire and true liking - Red