This post was written under the name “Who we could have been by now” 3 weeks ago, and I now decided to use this as a kickstart to log my journey. It reminds me how much time has slipped and I will learn from that mistake forever.
I have now made my ultimate commitment to become what I strive to be. To unleash my potential and open towards the world as a proactive member of society.
I was living in isolation and shyness, also in egoistic behavior. Everything I wanted has happened in my fantasy. And even though I made a lot of progress on my mental development, I have done nothing for humanity. This will now change, and this Log will be a reminder for me to achieve progress everyday and manifest a self-sustaining existence and an open organisation by 1.1.2020.
For the past 9 years I have studied, researched and experienced some of the highest states of conscioussness one can imagine, and I now feel it is time to culminate my knowledge for the good of humanity, espacially the new generation.
I will update this post when the details have settled in my head, for now I want to welcome anyone who needs help or inspiration.
Hey Everyone…28 Days current streak. Havent Ejeculated for 3 years though, was evolving quite well and lived a life full of wonders. But still, P and M have haunted me.
You know what really angers me? First time I read about NoFap was in 2012 in a Bodybuilding Forum. Was hooked by the first moment. The science, the logic, the sense has deeply convinced me. It could have ended there, but it didn’t.
First time I installed the App was on 1.1.2016. If I would have sticked to my commitments back then my streak would be over 1400 days by now. But it isn’t.
And it pisses me off. Im getting really clear in my head this streak and I just can’t believe what kind of a stupid fucking idiot I was. It is almost unbearable to picture myself now as a person with a 1400 day streak, or even a 4000 (!) day streak when considering my knowledge in 2012. Who could I be by now if it wasn’t for my stupidity?
I am 26 now. It’s still young. More than young enough to become who I want to be, but still it’s not the same as if you are 19. I feel the clock ticking and it brings tears to my eyes to imagine myself as the 26 years old guy with all his dreams fulfilled because he is full of life force from conserving his sexual energy for years. Here I am with a pathetic 28 day streak. I am so full of anger and disappointment right now. I know what many of you will say, it’s a battle and for everytime you fall you stand up again, but still. I knew what I was going into back then and still I failed.
Just imagine…imagine who you could have been by now. That’s the ultimate trigger to stick to your final commitment. Forever.