This really helped me today
I like this docu a lot
Day 4
Praise God for another pmo free day, I took off today cause of the rain (I run a construction business) which I was afraid of days off cause of the idle time, but praise God I was pretty much free from temptation!! I cleaned my house, which is a good feeling to walk into a room and it seems all nice and clean, helps with moral. I’ve also cut out 99% of my music and all movies and TV shows, because I have plenty of better things to do. Looking forward to another day free tomorrow!!
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Day 5
Thanks to God I am free for another day! I got to remember that I am not invincible, because the moment I think that is the moment that I will fall, I need to be careful on my phone on FB or even in public, because if I let my mind wander it can take me places I don’t want to go. We’ll it’s getting late, aught to get to sleep.
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Day 6
Another day on the grind stone, I came close to relapsing today, I was checking my email and somehow I got a scam in my regular inbox and I clicked on it and there were photos on there, she wasn’t nude or anything but she wasn’t dressed for the convent either, but I was like nope and deleted it, but then I was like I wonder if there are more of these in my spam inbox, I knew then I was treading dangerously, but I did it anyway, I looked at like 3 emails a couple actually had a nude chic in it, but I told myself I was just deleting spam. I didn’t look at it for long just a half sec glance (literally half sec) and then deleted it. But I was like I gotta stop I relapsed thru this before and so I hit the empty spam and was out a there. I gotta stay busy on my days off so that I don’t have time to goof of on my phone. Hoping to keep farther away from temptation tomorrow and always
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Day 7
Praise God for another day full of victories!! Went to church, txted my ex/girlfriend, it’s complicated because we are taking time but are gonna give it another shot, but I txted her and it was very encouraging, I praise God for her!! I am praying for strength for another day tomorrow, I know God will grant it if only I will reach out and take it 
. I really appreciated the letter/story @David.Copperfield posted, it really made me think. We can do this!!
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Day 8
I today was a but of a drag in the afternoon anyway, went to visit my parents for father’s day and that was good, but in the afternoon I was tired and sat around and didn’t feel like doing anything, I studied a little for my GED tests in the morning, so that was good, I just gotta be careful because it’s afternoons like this one that can be relapse prone, gotta get up and do something even if I don’t feel like doing anything. If I am going win this fight I have to go against how I feel because feelings will betray you so fast. I can and will do this!! I really appreciated @neveragaintw his diary has it layed out like a blueprint or battle plan, it really helped me identify my triggers.
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Day 9
Another day free!! I need to be careful, I was on YouTube and those dang people but some crazy thumbnails on the suggested videos, but hey sex sells. I probably don’t need to watch it anyway, but I need to be off YouTube entirely, I watched a movie this afternoon and afterward I was like 2 hours wasted!! I can use my time better than that!! Anyway it’s getting late and I have work early so yeah …
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Day 10
I feel like I am saying the same thing every day, free for another day!! I am praise God, but the days seem to drag by, the first couple days are filled with guilt the next few you are super motivated to go but now the days seem long and boring, I think my brain is craving dopamine, and so it is turning down the dail on every thing else. The other hard thing is my girlfriend and I are separated right now but are gonna get back together soon, like two months or so, I hope, and while that was my idea to wait awhile it is sooooo hard. But I really want to get this beat before that, I know it’s always around the corner but if I can make it two months, it might be better. I can do this I just need to keep the goal in sight and trust God!! I am considering getting a flip phone and ditching the smartphone, which would eliminate 99% of ■■■■ temptation. But I use my smartphone for my business and for this app, because I don’t have Internet, just data on my phone. So it’s a struggle, but yeah, I’ll figure it out
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I am glad that you have made it to the 10 days.
Real Test is still waiting for you.
Only a Great Soul can make it through.
When your own mind will turn against you, & you start questioning nogap… Remember my words that day
…
YOU HAVE CHOOSEN THIS PATH, IT IS THE PATH OF PERFECT BLISSFUL LIFE. YOUR MIND IS JUST YOURS TO COMMAND. YOUR THOUGHTS ARE YOUR SLAVE. YOU HAD CHOOSEN THIS PATH BECAUSE YOU KNOW THE TRUTH THEN.
YOU ARE NOT A SLAVE OF YOUR MIND & THOUGHTS. YOU ARE THE MASTER. THE KEYS TO FREEDOM ARE PROVIDED TO YOU
OPEN THE DOOR & FLY IN THE SKY BECAUSE YOU HAVE EARNED YOUR FREEDOM
FREEDOM FROM YEARS OF SLAVERY.
NO ONE CAN STOP YOU NOW
YOU ARE INVINCIBLE
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Day 11
Another day… made it thru can’t write long tonight but today was better than yesterday anyway but I pray that tomorrow goes better
Day 13
I guess I skipped a day, been really busy, but today was one of the best days I’ve had in a while , part of it was I got paid (I’m self employed) and the other part is that me and my girlfriend talked alot of misunderstandings out, that did me alot of good!! I worked a part day and came home and cleaned. I made a good trade today, my big screen TV for a kayak. I think it was a good trade today I felt like I could take on the world!! And by God’s Grace I shall!!
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Hey man I have been going through some crisis myself, identity crisis, I just graduated in a field I never gave a fuck about and now I am moving towards doing something that I would love even if I make less money. So I am rewiring all kinds of parts of myself. I have been listening to binaural beats (VERY VERY HELPFUL!!!) , Cleasing my gut, improving my posture with exercise and reading more books.
Addiction : I remember I have had many addiction problem - thumb sucking as a child, video gaming, masterbating and I overcame 2/3 one advice I will give you that has tremendously worked for me is to let go addiction goes away when it has to never try to suppress and force it it will go whenever it has to go. If your ex was open and good tell her about your problem and overcome it with love I promise you won’t feel the urge to jack off.
Edit : https://youtu.be/J4XILtCBJ3k listen to this binaural beats with eyes closed and in comfortable meditation position It’s like magic trust it there is lot of science behind it
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Day 19
Wow how time flies, 19 days and here I am. I feel like I am over the hump but I have to be careful because even though I might not have urges all the time the moment that I think that I have this handled and I finished dealing with it is the moment it will come back and attack me like never before. I talked to my ex and we’re back together again. I have a girlfriend!!! And she is so awesome, I pray everyday that I would be worthy of her and that I would be the man that God wants me to be. With God’s help we can overcome this, with God’s help we can all become better men better people, we can rise to Heights we never thought possible we can go distances we never thought we could, but only with his help!!!
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Day 22
I am so busy rn I don’t think I really have time to think about porn or have urges. I just need to be careful because I think if I am to busy for a long time when I am idle for a while it might come back full force, so I am praying that God would help me to stay strong, with his I can go forward and never go back, only with his power tho
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Day 23
Today was a good day, got alot of work done. Spent some time with my girlfriend this evening, cuddled alot, it was a little hard, because even tho I wasn’t like I really want her right now, I wasn’t even turned on really. But I still got a rock hard erection, so that was awkward. We are waiting for marriage so it is rough. I not sure because before I relapsed because we were pushing the “envelope”. And I don’t want to do that again. And we are cutting it way back, but I’m not sure where to draw the line, do I cut it off anytime I get an erection? Idk
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Really love to see your development. Be careful bro!
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Day 33
Man its been a while, it’s been pretty good so far, the urges have been small and easily beaten, I am trying to manage my time better and not wast it watching movies or on social media. I have gotten to the point that I feel the same feeling as relapse if I waste a few hours on a movie. The other hard thing is that everywhere I go I see women, and I have to fight not staring and lusting, and I feel terrible because I want to have eyes for only my girlfriend, I truly love her and want to make her happy and don’t want to bring her pain. I pray to God that he will train my eyes and heart. And ask for His continual help to quit ■■■■ and mastrobation forever, it brings pain to family’s and kills love.
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Start watching guys and how they stare at the opposite sex, it’s hilarious!
I can give some advise,
obviously you can take it or leave it.
If you’re like me, you probably say to yourself “don’t look, don’t look, think about something else, come on man! you’re better than that”
And then I stare for a couple of seconds,
-some emotional charge, and a slight/subtle sense of guilt/failure-
I’ve ditched that idea, and now I’m like,
“yep, hot girls, so what?”… I notice them, and just carry on, on my way.
*edit - that last bit, I’m now ditching too.
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