Hey guys, it’s been 10 days since I’m abstaining from PMO (Hardmode). My highest streak was around 36 days few months ago and surprisingly I got a girlfriend during that streak. I used to feel really amazing and I felt like I was on top of the world. But unfortunately, we broke up after a few months due to some issues and I started to binge back on porn and regular fapping which lead to me getting back to the old person I was (demotivated, sad, less love and care for others).
Now, 10 days ago I started NoFap again and getting pissed off of what I was really doing to myself and then I decided to go complete Hardmode. I have already been writing down my diary on my phone’s notepad and I just came across this awesome forum in this app. It’s really amazing to read everyone’s journal and that motivates me to keep going on. I’ll paste the journal which I wrote down for 10 days and I’ll continue from tomorrow (Day 11) here. Good luck everyone and I’m really happy to join you guys.
General details:
Male
India
20 years old.
JOURNAL:
NF Diary:
Day 2: (29/November/19)
Today was a good day. I woke up early and went for a photoshoot and then I went to office. I had some urges after opening Instagram but since I was busy the whole day, I didnt focus on it. I felt a bit tired but I worked on making a good research/script for a shoot. I was pretty motivated. I’m still feeling a bit of jealousy and emotional. People still don’t respond to me talking. I had problems with eye contact.
Day 3: (30/November/19)
Had a sex/fap dream today and in the dream I remembered I was doing NoFap and I immediately stopped what I was doing. I’m really happy about that. I woke up early morning at 6 AM for a shoot. I was able to keep some eye contact while talking. I was happy, energetic and motivated. Less jealousy.
Day 4: (1/December/19)
I woke up with a dream where I opened a porn site accidentally and then I remembered I shouldn’t fap and watch porn and I closed it immediately. It’s funny how my brain has already started to trick me in my dreams. I also woke up early before my alarm. I’m having some urges than before. I felt tired and sleepy the whole day after a morning photo shoot.
Day 5: (2/December/19)
Felt very energetic. I shot pictures for Sochi Beach party. This was my first time to a club and it was amazing. I felt great. I met some good people and had fun. I also learnt new tricks and styles to shoot club photography.
Day 6: (3/December/19)
I came home from the club at 4:30 AM and went to sleep at 5. I woke up at around 12 and immediately I felt like washing my clothes. I can’t believe that I washed most of my dirty clothes, cleaned the bathroom, my room and changed the dirty bed sheets. It’s surprising how I felt productive.
Day 7: (4/December/19)
I just woke up. I had a sex dream today. I was motivated the entire day. I had a bad headache in the evening so I went to sleep early.
Day 8: (5/December/19)
Today was a good day. Even though I had a bad mood in the morning it wasn’t that strong as I used to get before NoFap. It was mild and it disappeared. I was also talkative today and people responded well. I was also able to not have much filters during conversations.
Day 9: (6/December/19)
I woke up exactly 1 minute before the alarm. I’m surprised how I can get out of the bed very easily now. I’m not lazy anymore. I even felt like meditating and stretching and I did it!! I feel awesome mental clarity and positiveness and also mainly motivation. I also feel like talking to people especially to the ones who I haven’t spoken to for a long time. I had a big shoot today at a school event with 5000 people. I was kinda nervous shooting in front of all these people. I even got onto the stage where the DJs were playing and all the 5000 people were watching and dancing. It was awesome and I didn’t feel tired at all after the shoot.
Day 10: (7/December/19)
Wow, I woke up before the alarm today also! But I fell asleep again since I was really tired from last night’s shoot. I am having some urges for the past 2 days. I just feel happy nowadays even if nothing new has happened. I also tend to appreciate even small things now which I never used to care about before NoFap.
All the best for your journey guys and don’t give up!!
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