[kme33] A love shock: how i addicted porn

N.B:this is my real story with porn
WARNING: If you are easily aroused, dont read this , PLEASE PLEASE

1.It all started in a religious country where you can not talk to girls, have friendships with them or even see their face ( they were all covered), I was that quiet,polite ,and sophisticated child that follows strict religious orders.

2.I travelled to live in another country that follows the same religion but with less covered women and girls and it was my initial time to see a girl’s face,hair and body when i was about 9 years old.

  1. Of course, I was amazed by this but not sexually aroused, when i was 11 yo AND THEN I SAW HER, The most gorgeous and beautiful girls i have ever seen in my life. To consice, i loved her like crazy.

  2. I was so religious that I could not tell her that I loved her, but i told my friend who tired to help and tell her.

  3. She refused me and came to me and said “I do not love you, I love ‘another person’”.

  4. My heart was broken and i felt like shit and feared that she tells my mother or any teacher cuz i was known to be the most intelligent and polite students out there.

  5. One day, my friend suggested me to watch porn. Because of my religious background, i said no that is wrong. But the depression i was in did not give me a chance.

  6. I commenced by watching dancing vids on youtube, then when i got used to it, i opened my first porn website. In first, i was disgusted. It was heinous to see naked female body. So i watched dancing videos on this website. then it became usual for me. So i started looking and striptease . Then it became usual for me.

  7. In one striptease video, the actor did few masturbation and it sounded awful as i was disgusted of female genitalia. Then, this thing happened again and again and one time, i completed a striptease video ended with masturbation without being disgusted. The moans, flexions , extensions, face expressions, the lighting, skin color, lips, genitalia and her body was sufficient to make me masturbate and ejaculate for the first time. I felt shameful and hated myself.

  8. This stage lasted with me for long time. I was disgusted from sexual intercourse until i opened one by coincidence, it felt good but not great. I completed with female masturbation till i saw live cams website, i entered and saw the whole thing again but in livestream and it felt extremely arousing. This stage lasted for long too. Until, once i opened porn web and saw that bj. It felt awesome. This is my current stage now and i have been trying to quit for a long time but it is not the easiest thing but i have the determination to do so and i will.

N.B: I am now 17 yo and in university.
I am telling you this story as a way of psycological treatment.
Thanks

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I can relate a lot with you brother. But I started on my own and not bcoz of peer pressure.

Don’t continue with porn brother. Leave it today. you may think that the variety you are watching is so much stimulating that its very hard to leave. But the damaging effects it has on you is very huge.
Pray to The Almighty.
Read the easy peasy hack book by Alan Car
It will give you a lot of insight

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I really appreciate your advice,bro.
I am exerting my best to stop it. I know it is not the simplest thing to do,but I am determined.
Hope you the best.

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Read your story bro…

I totally get u, we all have been there… We start somewhere, then we start exploring in the world of porn… Then, things are going to keep getting worse the more we explore. Take this literally because it does happen.

The best thing about you is, you discovered all of it at 17. You know it’s wrong and you want to get better, happy for you man. But I suggest you to leave it soon, work on it, honestly I know its hard but its not something that cant be done… Its same as, you don’t want to study but you have to. If you feel its doable, you do it. If you feel you cant, its hard. As simple as that… Also, its not about being confident on day one, and stopping that later on, you have to work on that confidence daily. Trust me, it will help you in various ways in the long run… Like self development. Your grades will get better, you will get more confidence, you will love yourself, you are going to become more successful, stuff like that… These small stuff is going to make you an amazing guy all around.

Also, one thing for your future. Dont do something because someone rejected you or someone said something wrong to you. We cant control what they do, but we can control what we do. Dont let others actions decide your reaction. Put yourself first bro.

Peace :v:

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Your reply is just expressing what I learnt throughout this journey. I gained the experience in injurious way.There is still one step to reach to the top and it is application. I see that it is th hardest part, but I am confident this time. My next plan is to stop pmo until my birthday after 3 months. I want to turn 18 as a whole new guy. I am a believer in myself.
I am really grateful for your support. :v:

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