What’s the point of fighting if you are gonna lose one day? By the worst of methods?
Bro you fell? 
or is it just a dream??
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Ah fck dude, I can actually relate to the feeling, it is quite traumatising when such things happen, Thankfully I didn’t do anything wrong at that time God saved me but I did lose a lot of money and I saw that as a lesson that God taught me for letting my mind go astray like this.
What I did to calm myself down afterwards was to go to some temple nearby and prayed to God for keeping me on track.
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That’s the point bro, I don’t see any major point in fretting so much about huge streak nos. now, I just focus more on growing myself in other aspects and even when relapse happens I rarely fall in loop of guilt and all now, because I still keep focusing on positives.
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Life is all about how we enjoy our day , daily routine and how we travel with friends. Nofap teaches how we will enjoy small happiness.
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This was sad news to wake up to, brother.
You’re not scum or a peasant, man. If the king makes a mistake, do they take away his crown?
But you do need to ask yourself why you gave into those urges again after 130 days. Think about it, there are certain things we would never do, no matter how late at night it is or how exhausted we are. If a family member came to disturb us when we haven’t slept, would we lose control and punch them in the face out of frustration? We still have self-control even when we aren’t at our best.
It’s time to cut off the desire for PMO at the root. We have to decide that no matter how pleasurable the experience of PMO may be, regardless of how we’re feeling, under no circumstances will we go back to hell.
Learn from the mistake and rise again, stronger and wiser than before.
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That’s the way to go. But don’t worry bro I need to be clean till 20th march. Because people who have followed my dairy knows what happens after I cross 7 clean days. (The last 2 times I crossed 7, I went onto streaks of 87 and 132 days respectively).
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Yeah man, but the thing is it’s not something an extraordinary urge or something. It was just that I let my guard down.
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That’s so true man. Even when I was in this unforgivable act, I was looking straight in the eye of the girl I paid.
Which might not have been possible if I was a fapper.
Looking in the eyes told me how miserable their lives are that knowingly or unknowingly they are doing such sinful acts.
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Who are you who is so wise in the ways of no fap?
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I cant believe 
bro
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I told you, actually you had been undergoing the exact same arc that I went through when I broke a 134 days streak, some minor setback around day 100, then thinking that I can resiist anything now and minor triggers won’t affect me, and then bam relapse after few days. That’s why I just gave you a heads up that day bro. But yeah it’s always good to be positive about yourself and what you can do/achieve.
BTW you need to change the title of your diary, self loathing is not allowed if you want to stay in my company . (This doesn’t mean that you can’t share your emotions even if they are negative)
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Fr?
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6k is too meme accurate, U brought 
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Faced the same issue a few days ago. Man why tf does society wants all the young males to view this shit? I was watching some anime and I clicked the play icon BOOM I was redirected to a shit cam side. I laughed on top of my lungs cuz thank goodness I’m and never was into cam shit. It’s was funny but later I was deep in thoughts thinking WHY?. Just why do you (society) even allows this to happen?. Not even a father but I think about my offspring falling into this garbage alot. 
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It’s not about falling down. We all fall at some point. What truly matters is how you handle the setback. How you can minimize the damage. Also how you’ll NOT create more deep shit kinks.
Just one thing bro. I relapsed from 206 days and now made through the hell to now 83 days.
If i can do it why can’t you???.
Bro please avoid this what you did. It’ll lead itno more dangerous stuff. They are mostly poor and needy and if you pay they’d be down for anything. Remember bro we are men with dignity. We love and then have intemacy with consent. It’s a pathetic act to pay someone for it. And i know you’re not one of those low men.
It’s life. And life is not a bed of roses. Infact MF it’s all thorny. Hang in there. Face the consequences and get up. Rebuild yourself. Also please 
never again this mistake. Man sex addiction is a whole another beast we kids don’t want to mess with. If I’m not wrong you don’t live with your parents and in a hostel. C’mon bro please don’t destroy your future man. I swear i was really sad when I read your posts.
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I hope it leads to a similar ending as it is for you. As you cracked PSU. Atleast I want to crack IIT.
Maybe I will change it as I keep accumulating badges.
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Yeah man, and reality hit way too hard. I am glad I didn’t hurt myself physically out of frustration.
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Bro, not the right time for memes 
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The act I did was so miserable. This time I will go complete hardmode.
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