I’m here. Life is not what I expected it to be. The start of college felt like I was on my way to somewhere great. I got married. And slowly over time, all those hopes and stand were fading and doying as I struggled with maintaining the energy and work necessary to succeed.
5 years of marriage, ended 8 months ago. I am still struggling to slowly finish my degree after many semesters created and burned. And now loneliness invades me daily as a once bright and cheerful person stares down their bleak reality, and fans into the clothes of depression.
It hurts.
I’m trying to turn my life around. I will finish school! I will conquer my inadequacies. I will conquer this addiction. I will fight to become proud of who I am once again.
At the moment I do not feel I am worthy to even date, as I can’t help but compare myself to others my age.
I have started putting in place many things to help me get there some day, but now I am a prisoner to time, as I wait for the next chance to do something, but Knowing that I have things I can do now.