Journey of an Aspiring Bhakt - Mahesh's Journal

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Present To do

  1. Wake up at 4 AM
  2. Exercise 10 min
  3. Meditation 10 min
  4. No Junk
  5. Mobile usage < 1 hr
  6. Study atleast for the daily quota
  7. No Mobile in Shower and Toilet
  8. No PMO and Lewd Thoughts

Future To do Goals to Add

  1. Work in Progress…
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Present Goals

Clear Qualification Exam > 75%

Future Goals

Get my Degree > 9 CGPA

Save 1 Cr

Body Fat<5%

Adopt 3 Kids

Open a Gaushala

Start a Platform/Rehabilitation Centre to help PMO Addicts

Create Awareness about the Cycle of Sexual Assault and Work for it

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Weekly, Monthly, Quarterly, Yearly Logs

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Post 4

Reason I failed and its
Counter Measure

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Current Situation

  1. PMO - 2+ times a day

  2. Digital Wellbeing - 8+ hr per day

  3. Academics - fail in everything

  4. Financial - approx 25k saved… Nearly broke

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Happy Holi.

Day 1

Woke up at 6:45 AM

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bruhh, shit. What happened? Are you alright?

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@Mahesh27_03

Are you relapsing daily ? :thinking::face_with_raised_eyebrow:

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@Amitroghates

Lately, i started fapping every night till my eyes shut themselves… Was Struggling with anxiety and mind tricking me… Working to find a better approach.

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Bro rather focus on getting yourself tired by working out, my eyes also shutdown on their own now a days that too not too late because I get tired by working out.

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Nov 18 9:55 Am

Goals for the Change

6:00 Am - wake up
6:00-6:30 - fresh up and take bath

6:30-7:00 meditate

7:30 -7:50 walk

7:50 - 11 :15 shop

11:30-12:00 meditate

12 Sleep

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Smoked at 9:20

Did reset the counter

Her memories are hitting hard again

Need to get over.

New Goals

  1. Quit Smoking
  2. Stop whining for her
  3. Start reading again
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Last few months were a emotional rollercoaster to me

She contacted me again to get some updates

It felt she did that just because she felt guilty

Whatever
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I visited Premanand Ji Maharaj Ashram on this Holi

Diksha Initiation was done

  1. Quit Smoking :white_check_mark:

  2. Stop whining

    In process, I was able to reduce it a lot

  3. Start reading again

    Will start Tommorow