As a human being on Earth
I am not afraid of anything
I am just afraid of human beings
How much pain can a human inflict on fellow human
What happened in Bengal famine is happening AGAIN in Gaza with Israel cutting the food supplies for gazans
Lakhs of Palestinian children, mothers starving to death for food day and night
Even when the food exists, its too little for the starving crowd who struggle in the crowd to fetch food for their families potentially dying to stampede
Humanity has learnt NOTHING from History
Absolutely NOTHING
History just keeps repeating itself
I have been going through Depression for 2 months now
It has been most painful for me
As a result, I am unable to focus on studies and life
My lifestyle, sleep routine, eating habits among other things have been terrible during this period
What does it feel like
It feels like I have lost appetite in anything
I have no interest in anything at all in my life at present
I donāt know what caused this
I also donāt know how to get over it
I am vexed
Life means nothing to me at present
To cope with the mental voidness and pain, I go through Youtube, Instagram etc
It made things worse
It resulted in complete addiction in mobile phone implying doom scrolling and brain rot condition
My screen time has reached peak of 9 hours these days
I canāt even stay without mobile phone for 10 minutes
Thats how worse it is
I think a lot
Scrolling throu insta = being exposed to lot of stupid reels based on rage baiting, Lustful posts, hate posts, low IQ posts, distracting memes etc
These things have troubled me more
I am exposed to a lot of news content
And for the past 2 months, the news has been extremely negative around the Globae with Wars, Tragedies, Accidents, conflicts happening around the world
I am hyper Sensitive person with high empathy
So these negativity in the news causes me to suffer the pain inside me as a personal affair
Overthinking has been a torture for me
I also have a lot of emotional quotient
I have high empathy
Overthinking + Very High Empathy = Anxiety + Bornout
My Life had went to the drain
2025 started with a good note in my life
But at present itās a torture and worst phase of my life
I am not this
I am better than this
I need help
I have booked an appointment with a psychiatrist on 28th July for my mental health
I need to somehow move away from here
Just 1 month away from Exam
I havenāt started studying yet
If I donāt make it this time, my parents would taunt me as hell
Hope to improve my mental health and perform well in the exam
God save me
Take care of yourself brother. I appreciate your decision to get professional help. Itās a strong and brave step. And besides that, remember that you are not alone. We all have got your back.
Try to be kind to yourself. Eat well, sleep enough, get a bit of sunlight, exercise little and do some 5 minutes meditation. Cold showers help lifting energy too. These small things can really help bring your mind back to balance. Although it is possible one might still feel low at the moment as I think might be the case. Donāt worry
Remember we suffer more in imagination than in reality as Seneca said. Sometimes our mind makes things feel heavier than they are. Thatās why I think⦠maybe watch something like Blue Lock Itās intense⦠and rewarding yourself with an episode after a short study session might give you a new spark a new feeling and most importantly perhaps a new perception.
The way we imagine and perceive things can often change how we feel. Talk to yourself with kindness and focus on whatās in your control, youāll feel stronger.
And although⦠this platform is virtual⦠more than advising I feel like placing my hand over your shoulder and say⦠Iām with you. Donāt worry.
Nothing gives us the mental peace and therapy more than Dogs and Cats
They are make our lives colorful
People would compare them one against the other
But i donāt believe in it at all
Both Dogs and Cats are angels sent by god to human beings
They are unique in their behavior and actions
They make our lives wonderful
When u have them, you donāt need any therapy