Hi guys, after taking a break from the app I am now come back .
I’m at 123th days of semen retention, but I’m having a serious problem now, which I will explain in the next few lines.
One of the ingredients of my success, if I have gone beyond 4 months of total abstinence, has been to be present in this forum and share a few pieces of my days with you.
From day 89 onwards, I reduced 90% access to the app, to focus on myself.
I have to say that all in all made some progress during this last month that i didn’t show up so often in this app.
Unfortunately I have problems with alcohol: it’s not that I’m addicted, but when I’m with my friends going out at night, I drink a lot. However, other than drinking, I can’t feel my body and understand when I consumed too much alcohol, so I always exaggerate, I exceed my limit, not every day but about 3-4 times a month.
The three days after taking it, I experience strong bad symptoms on myself, and when I went to the doctor last year, because these symptoms (diarrhea, nausea, strong general malaise) became strong, I was diagnosed with level two intolerance to alcohol and ipersensibility.
All this to tell you that the day before yesterday was the last time I took alcohol with an alcohol content of 2.82 g/kg (0.30 BAC,if you are from USA), and today i felt very very bad, so much so that I barely got out of bed, at a certain point my brain ordered me to masturbte to relieve the pain.
I didn’t listen to my brain, precisely because I promised myself to not to do anymore those disgusting things, so I considered calling an escor (and I really intended to do so, so much so that I prepared the money at the entrance to my house), only that in the end I felt so bad that I lay down on the bed and fell asleep
Now I’m better, I’ve taken the medicine, I realize the disgusting things that I even thought, and even if I’ve made enormous progress because I haven’t consumed pornography for the longest 4 months and generally speaking, I’m training and making small but big progress in other areas of my life, on the other hand I’m realizing that the problem is more serious than I thought 
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Anyway, I just learned about this and the phenomenon of alcohol is called “binge drinking”
I continued to have wet dreams, which while on the one hand are natural, on the other hand is blame my mind if they happen.
So I believe that despite the 4 months of total abstinence from any pornographic content, there are still residues left in my mind, of 12 years of addiction.
It’s possible that I’m experiencing periods of flatline and some days of life improvement?
Because currently I’m feeling in the flatline period, but some weeks ago i was so powerful and energetic.
We all lost our progress. Glad that you are still fighting.
Oh man ! That’s a really bad news. But I feel deep in my heart that you are improving and continuing on your path.
Got a job and I am gonna board it soon so yeah life is moving on. 
Great, I’m very happy to read this good news 
Penis size increase for long periods of Nofap, what do you think about it?
I ask this simply because, both flaccid and erect, I notice that my penis has gotten bigger than before. I thought it was a momentary state like for example when you have to pee a lot and it swells up a bit, but now this increase has been going on for days. Placebo effect or proven scientific reality ?
I guess regular fapping maybe shrinks it more than normal. I guess it might be now remaining in the natural size more often.
First thing I thought of this too.
Fapping really sucks.
130 DAYS, round number 
Bro my brotherly advice would be to forget NOFAP and PMO and fight this alcohol addiction give your all attention to this YOU’R ARE FREE FROM THIS NOW ngl bro I quit cigarettes on NOFAP and it was so easy because i just focused on one addiction of course which was more harder for me (smoking) and by doing this i did amazing on nofap and on quitting cigarettes , Also don’t let this demotivate you, also don’t turn a relapse on you alcohol journey into a pmo one. About the PP size tbh i think that’s your true size, why? IK you can fell you PP solid hard when you hard, literally feels like it’ll explode and this size was your actually size from the start but too much pmo and brain rewired to pixels just hid it from you. BTW THE BEST THING is i’m sure your body will soon start to ache for a real human so do something about that too. nice bro keep going RESPECT
THINGS JUST BEGAN TO GET BETTER BRO, Hang in there you can do this.
You gave me so much motivation with what you wrote bro, thank you very much 
Life without p*rn is definitely better.
Thank god to gave me the power to overcome PMO addiction
Good job man. Mad respect. You seem like a very edcuated and self aware person. I look up to you and hope to reach your level of discipline also
Side note, do you know why you indulge in alcohol so much? Addictions are usually a coping mechanism.
Thanks Man, I appreciate so much the compliments and I hope you can one day reach your full potential.
Meanwhile, as regards alcohol, I have not drunk for 22 days so far.
I think the main problem is the context, I’ll explain better…when I go out in the evening, many times I go in clubs popping bottles, in those situations there is a lot of alcohol and everyone is super euphoric, (there’s also a lot of drugs, but I was addicted to it many years ago and I’m completely out of it now, I have a strong rejection of drugs, they disgust me, and since they are not socially accepted, once you say no to drugs there is not so much insistence, which with alcohol, since you find it in various normal situations, such as restaurants, discos, bars, and also is socially accepted, if you say no to alcohol, they look at you in a strange way), I continue with my thoughts… In these situations, after a while we’re inside the club, people get freaked out by alcohol and drugs, so staying sober in these contexts makes me feel uncomfortable, so some of them look at me and say to me “what’s wrong, are you good? I see you a little down” (when, in reality, I’m not down at all, I’m just “normal” and I haven’t gone freaked out as they are, that’s it), so one of my friends give me some alcohol to try to cheer me up and I feel forced to drink, at that point the problems start for me, after the first drink, I can’t stop and I find myself at 5 AM that I have drank 8/10/12/15/18 cocktails and I’m completely drunk and sometimes I have to drive to go home (sometimes i found myself in dangerous situations driving when i was drunk, thank God, nothing ever happened to me).
So the problems for me are the context and the fact that alcohol is socially accepted and legal, so you can find it practically everywhere.
Other situation is when I have an appointment with a girl for an aperitif or for a dinner and if i say that I don’t drink most of the girls turn off as if alcohol is a way to loosen up and become more attractive, so the date most of the time is a little bit awkward…can anyone understand me what i’m talking about here?
However I’m learning to be free and loose in social situations so I would be 100% myself always, and people that drink they don’t feel the need to offer me something to cheer me up. Or with girls in dates, they find me attractive as I am, without the help of alcohol.
It happens to some of you that the day after you have had a wet dream then the urges are at full power ?
Anyway day n°144, it’s been a while uh🤙🏼
Today was pretty hard, i ramdomly saw a video on YouTube about this guy that interviewed these porstars and he asked to them if size matters or not… My brain started to have lustful thoughts, I was so, so close to relapse, i was alone at home, THANK GOD TO MY MENTAL STRENGTH AND MY DISCIPLINE I SWITCHED OFF THE PHONE AFTER 2 MINUTES THAT THE VIDEO ON YOUTUBE STARTED, I BECAME DISGUSTED AND I STARTING MEDITATING. Today I am safe.
As a precaution I installed a prn blocker that i had unistalled about 50 days ago (beacuse i thought i was safe)… But, randomly, there are dangers even on YouTube.