Yesterday night,just out of curiosity to test my urges,I deliberately watched soft core p*rn,I didn’t get any erection. Instead,I feeling like how stupid they r, doing stupid things. Also at the back of my head,my mind was telling " Dude, remember it’s a film, totally fake…Are you that stupid to waste your vital fluids by watching these stupid people doing stupid things "
Quite interestingly,the same night I didn’t get any urges,or any wet dream.
Now let me tell you what is now alluring me. I like to ride my bikes in evening time and watch out some beautiful girls. I don’t give them a creepy look,or constantly staring at them. I just watch them as I pass them,and thank god for creating such beautiful human. I see them as beautiful, intelligent human, with whom I would like to share my feelings and love
Is it sign of recovery ?? As many of you know me,I was never hooked into pornography per se. I was addicted to fapping watching my neighbor aunty, that’s it . And nothing else…now it’s been more than 1 month,I am NOT bothered to peek at her in creepy way. She is somebody’s wife and I gotta respect that.
Thanks everyone again