As I have already told in this group,I find porn utterly disgusting and was never into it. I never ever relapsed watching this shitty thing. My only problem is I fap watching my neighborhood aunty. Whenever she comes out in her terrace either for drying out her wet hair or hanging clothes, I secretly watch her and fap . There’s a washroom in our terrace from where I can get clear view of her terrace. This winter was very hard for me to resist. Almost every week I fapped by looking at her whilst she was drying her wet hair in sunshine.
Please don’t call me creepy,I really need your help or suggestions regarding how can I overcome this problem ??
I’m truly desirous to change my attitude towards my neighborhood aunty
She talks with my mother,and also seldomly I had also talked to her. But these days my obsession is increasing for her. I want to confess my feelings to her,I wanna marry her and have sex everyday with her. ( yes she is married and has 10 years old son )
To get rid of my desire for her,I tried out making out with call girls or flirt with girls. But none of them seems such attractive like my aunty. For me,she is the sexist woman in the world with curvy body and beautiful hair
If you want to marry her and have sex, you need to change this mindset first. Understand that it is just bodily attraction and you are no way a good match for her, also she is about your mother’s age. Imagine what your mother would do after she comes to know about this. Also, (no offence) what if someone does this to your mother? How would you feel? How would you react? You would even be ready to kill that person. For her 10 year old son, you are that guy. We need to understand that women are humans with an individuality. They are not objects. Also,
this won’t satisfy you, instead it will make you want her more.
You don’t need a way to get rid of her, you just need to develop a perspective and a right mindset. She is like your mother and deserves your respect. So respect her like you would do to your own sister or mother.
Also, fapping by looking at her won’t satisfy your hunger either. It will simply add fuel to the fire. So it’s better to understand that fapping isn’t a solution. You don’t need self control to overcome this. You just need some self-realisation. Give yourself some time and ask yourself what you are doing. Reflect. Introspect. Ask yourself who you have become. Do you want to become the monster for her son? Would you entertain someone doing this to your own mother? Ask yourself and the answer will be simple.
Just think her without her skin. Only those organs and flesh and blood. Pretty scary or worse imagine a human corpse which will turn you off. This worked for me do not think negative for them but just understand that it’s just her body and not the actual her. If all this doesn’t works be busy when she comes out and go somewhere else
I think we talked about this in the past. I too was in your place, and let me explain you how you can get out of it. You first have to understand that there is absolutely nothing special about that woman or any woman for that matter. The illusion of speciality in someone is caused by their artificially created differences from the other gender (that is, long hair, make-up, different dress code etc) on top of the natural differences (like, their smaller body, sexual organs, voice difference, femininity).
Just look at her without these artificially created differences, you will be free from the demon of lust.
The thing is you already have a solution, you said ■■■■ disgusts you, i believe you are saying that because you find it extremely gross seeing those naked bodies, butth0les etc. In ■■■■ you see the people without any filter, but in real life, as in your case, you are seeing her with the filter of her clothes, the clothes create a lot of illusion for opposite gender, the little bit mystery clothes create is enough to attract opposite gender.
So just learn to see things as they are, without any filters and without artificially created gender differences. You will be free my man.
I explained it in detail in this post:
Life is meant to be lived peacefully my friend, let’s fight these demons of lust which make life miserable.
