I relapsed last night at day 43 of my streak

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I relapsed last night at day 43 of my streak it was my first and longest streak here… First it didn’t felt that bad, I thought I will just continue it’s just a bad day of my life but now I started to notice I am different than that when I was on streak I am kind of running from myself, afraid of myself. I almost forgot these feelings, it was nice 40+ days of my life I will achieve more… Today is my first day of second streak I will continue this awesome journey once again.

I know it is horrible to relapse, but hey i wasn’t expecting to get rid of the horrible habit in one. Go either… I have been porn addict from very childhood such long time effects brain in deeper way, of course it will take some time but I will be clean of this junk…

New day new beginning! Wish me luck.

Hope this time it is easier as it was on first or more…

My code : 2d4ren

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Tonight if urges come and just remember this confession & the tragedy attached with the relapse. Good Luck brother.

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Congratulations on this first very good streak!

I did the same. My first streak was 39 days long. I can understand what you feel and how you could think.

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33* mine…Not yet relapsed. There is always a firm line between diverting mind…I dun trust on me.Now it’s 12:08am. I ll go to sleep. Thanks for your post :blush:

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It is a very good starting point. Never underestimate the power of a streak. It builds up our confidence that we can do it again with a better score.
Just keep developing the coping mechanism more and more effective each day, with every urge.

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yah i also relapsed on my 7th day streak but now i will be more stronger and will reach 90+ Inshaalllah.

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THIS IS NOT A HABIT!!! THIS IS ADDICTION. AN ADDICTION MORE DANGEROUS THEN DRUGS.

Get the right mindset brother. Don’t use willpower. It’s not horrible to relapse. It’s horrible to blam yourself and not continue.

If you can do it for 1 day, you can do it for lifetime.

I always recommend to read ‘Easypeasy way hackbook’. You can download for free.

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So Since I relapsed I have hard time controlling myself, I watched nude tiktoks one day, explicit Web series on another day but stopped it immediately realising I am doing wrong thing. Haven’t fapped though, but resisting to porn or explicit content had been really difficult after relapsed.

I have been reading threads and messages that almost everyone after relapsing once fap many times until they hit the bottom again and frustration get them back to nofap! I want to be better than that! I don’t want to fap again not before January 20, yeah that’s my birthday. But for that I need to control porn as well! Today out of frustration on something I had strong urges to watch porn I even opend YouTube aap played a nude video but stopped it after few seconds… Next time I want to stop myself before playing the video… Or even opening the app…

I had enjoyed those 40+ clean days of my streak no precum no pron no regret of anything… I will get back there soon! Just need to try harder for few days, it’s already a week passed!