I feel flatline is already starting, i’m having way too much screentime and I can’t stop touching my dick… I start touching it without noticing and even start masturbation but quickly stop after it
It usually happens in the morning, but I feel I shouldn’t reset my counter because of it because i’m not relapsing, and my biggest issue is porn-
Anyways, i’m starting to feel sad, anxious and that… I’ve even been wanting to feel negativity by seeing some NoFappers that gave up the challenge on Reddit’s community, but they ended coming up again just like me
Ugh, I sometimes regret having joined and researched all of this and still being unable to get over it, I haven’t relapsed yet but i’m reaching the frustration and sadness stage again when I end up relapsing as always-
I would love making it to the end of this year PMO free, but…
Damn.
Being honest about my feelings, I hate suffering and knowing it, because I know that i’m doing wrong
Anyways, I remember my relapses before NoFap, I miss thinking I felt bad because I watched the wrong stuff, or that I went way too far with lust and should watch something softer next time… I was a fool, but I didn’t knew it…
Whatever, dudes-
It’s 12:52 AM as I write this, I can’t sleep and I feel I could just jerk off until I break my damn penis and come here crying about it like a loser… But my streak, and the other negative stuff in my life is the only thing holding me back cuz I’m having a hard time with screen time, depression and other stuff, and PMO would just get stuff worse…