I would like to aplogize to all my accountability partners because I fapped twice yesterday and once again today. I have. Een using the open Google Images as an excuse to not exercise my willpower and then try to block Google images. The truth is that I need to be on my laptop for a significant amount of time during the day becaue of work and I cannot escape triggering material on my laptop.
The bigger streaks I have had in the past came because I made it a point to not stay inside home for most of the day. Even for studying Inwould go to the study room.
This not being an option now, I had to resort to blocking everything. But the truth is that these can be easily bypassed when you have the urges and I have been trying to find the right way to use my computer which was essentially blocking everything. I do not use whatsapp, instagram, Facebook and YouTube anymore because I don’t think I can resist watching the bad stuff when alone at home.
This time is especially harder because I have to figure out new ways of dealing with myself. I know thatWim Hof breathing works like magic to transmute the urges.
But still when I have those urges it is too easy not to look.
The first option of staying outside all the time now working anymore, and not prwctical I have to now use the second option that worked and was really painful.
And that is to create a sense of heightened urgency. The idea of going back to porn was just too painful for me because I was a virgin. And I made it a point to only have sex with a real girl and if I do not stop nowI would die single.
I had a very heightened sense of urgency and strong desire to be a better man. A part of the desire also came from the retained semen. But majority of it was driven by pain because I was also socially anxious and was afraid to talk to girls.
But I pushed myself at that time to approach women randomly and did some comfort zone challenges to nfinally be free from the social problems.
And to my surprise I find myself fapping again now.
I do not have that deep pain pushing me to resist that really strong urge.
I guess I need to now redefine the approach. I do not want to feel pain for no reason. So I won’t go back. But I also know that if I don’t fap I can be someone. Like really someone. I mean capable of doing shit.
I have goals. And now I think I have to focus on my goals obsessively to the point that I have no time to think about pmo. I need to develop a sense of urgency towards my goals.
That’s it. The second point is the key. The sense of urgency to achieve personal goals is the key.
I want to know your opinion about this. And tips on how to never fap again !!! Ever !!