I have to change however

I’ve knew porn since Elementary School. I don’t even know where is it begin. But the triggers is way too much. My dad had a bunch of porn disks, and I found it. I have a friend -if I could say so- that loves gaming, but the games were inappropriate for our ages. Still, he’s showing me those images of half-naked women. [Fortunately, I’ve been far from him since Mid school.]

Even when my dad and I must live in one room within a narrow house, he brought a woman with him and do it there.

What the h— am I thinking…

Though, I never had a -real- gf until now.

The porn addict increases when I’m at High school. I was living at the dorm that time. And still, I did it again.

Am I regret it? Sure.

All the guilts make want to scream. Make me want to vomit. Make me want to harm and end myself.

“Please, don’t do it again,” that’s what I thought.

Now, I’m 20. And last week, I found this app. I realized that I’m not alone. There’s many people struggling with the same problem. I hope I can fix my broken self with it.

I don’t want to die. But the guilt makes my heart hurts.

Please.

Stop all this shit.

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I wish you the best guys… Leaving this forum permanently… Good luck on your journey

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Thanks, Jon. I really don’t know what to say as reply, but thank you so much for all the words you’ve wrote. Glad u being here for me. Thanks.

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Brother @AfonaseiSeif , you are not alone in this addiction. Millions of people like you around the world. Most of them just don’t realize they have the addiction. You did.

You are very lucky, all your life is before you, and you already realized you have the addiction. I had the addiction to PMO for 30 years before I came to this realization.

Start on the journey to be FREE! Don’t ever look back. Read the books, keep the streaks going and Never Give Up.

Whatever happens, Never Give Up. Learn from mistakes and Always start again on the road to Freedom!

You will get there.

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Thanks, bro. Wish I could learn from my mistakes without feeling hurts from the regrets n guilts. I feel so lonely irl… and these topics were difficult to tell to any of my family or friends…

And my dad… he has passed away about 3 years ago.

But, thanks to all… for all…
@JonSnow001 @Themonk1

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