I don’t know what happened, I was sick so lost my routine accountability.
And now I played a ■■■■ game, for 2-3 hours and then watched ■■■■ for another 1-2 hours.
I don’t know why I did it. It’s the middle of night.
I slept already enough in evening and early night so I am unable to sleep now.
I don’t want to be a bad example on anybody. I am sorry. I aint and try my best to not do the same mistakes again. 
Hey, it’s okay. Really. You’re human—and being sick throws everything off, especially your routines and emotions. You’re not a bad person for slipping. You’re actually aware, reflective, and you care enough to talk about it—that already sets you apart from so many people.
Sometimes we fall into distractions (like games or whatever else) because we’re avoiding something or feeling off balance. It doesn’t mean you’ve failed—it just means you’re human dealing with life.
This isn’t the end of the road. It’s just a moment. You can pick it back up tomorrow, gently. No need to punish yourself. Just ask: What do I need right now to feel okay again? Maybe some water, a walk, journaling, or just breathing it out.
Also, you’re not a bad example—you’re a real example. And real people stumble sometimes.
Your words are really resonating with what I really wanted to hear, I did not seek someone to scold me rather someone who could understand. Thank you, @Believer for volunteering to speak on God’s behalf.
That’s such a heartfelt message—thank you for sharing that. It means a lot to know the words reached you in the way you needed. Sometimes, we don’t need correction as much as we need compassion and someone to remind us that we’re still deeply seen and loved. If there’s anything more you want to talk about, I’m here.
Please take notes on why it happened and eradicate it as soon as possible…This is really not good to fall down after such long streak.
Don’t take it lightly man.
I’m sorry but it sounds funny 
. A p0rn game ?? Seems like U are having best time of ur life man
It’s frustrating when you try to fight but still fall. But listen this is not the end. You haven’t failed. You’re just stuck in a relapse cycle and the only way out is to break the pattern in a new way.Right now, it feels like the urges are controlling you, not the other way around. But here’s the truth: You have more power than you think. The key is not fighting urges head-on but cutting off their fuel before they even start.
Right now, your brain has built a habit:
Trigger → Urge → Watching → Relapse → Guilt → Repeat
When you feel the urge, do these 3 steps IMMEDIATELY:
Stand up and physically move (jumping jacks, push-ups, go outside)
Take a deep breath and say:
“I know this feeling will pass. I am in control.”
“If I don’t act on this urge, I’ll feel proud in 10 minutes.”
Do an alternative action for 5 minutes:
First of all create a journal like mine where you should check in every day
Read your and other’s journal
Watch something motivational (Eg: youtube)
Message a friend
I hope this helps
It’s okay. Take care of your sleep and diet for a couple days to recover. Come back strong!
Recovering from the messed up sleep schedule. Relapsed 2X. AT THIS POINT I’M LOOSING MY MIND.
Hang in there—resetting your sleep schedule is tough, but not impossible. Stick to a strict wake-up time, avoid naps, and cut screens 1–2 hours before bed. One bad night doesn’t ruin the whole effort. Keep pushing. You got this.
I lost again. Now this is what we call chaser effect or may be I never left and it was temporary relief.
Whatever the reason may be.
The reason why I was able to be free before was moving out for some days where I had no chance of relapsing.
I need to pull up something similar now again.
I thought I left it, but, I should have seen the signs. The moment I made an excuse to leave from an event, I should have known.
It all started from that again. I came home early and relapsed, and after that relapsed again after 5 days, then again after 4 days, and now I am relapsing everyday.
Should not go in much detail, but if I can leave it from this point, any of you can and will be.
It’s very brave of you to confess your actions. It creates more regret and makes you stronger.
Guys, I am lost totally. I relapsed again 2 times.
I relapsed 2 times everyday tf is wrong with me.
I guess I need to start from scratch again.
Lusty devil, I have a lusty devil Inside mf needs to die. My friends are so cool, I don’t wanna end up in ■■■■ addiction again to let them go.
I am done, fucking hell. I am not respecting my own body.
I don’t have control over my own fucking will.
It’s so repetitive, the same mistake again and again.
Day goes really well, when it’s night, I sleep early then boom, relapse early morning
I need someone who stays with me.
Before I had a gf who at least made sure I started Nofap, then I had relatives and family , now there is no reason idk why.
In the end Life will make me go on my path alone, so I need to work on myself to not relapse when I am alone.
I always relapse when I am alone for longer periods of time. I try, try so hard to stop it and distract myself.
I sleep early with the fact that It might be good to prevent relapse in night but then I wake up early and relapse before bathing.
I would have gone out the moment I wake up but for now for some reason I cannot go out.
It will remain like this for this week,
Lets hope it gets better by next week.
Man, thank you for opening up like this. That takes real strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. You’re not alone in this, and nothing about what you said makes you weak, broken, or unworthy. You’re in a cycle, yeah—but cycles can be broken.
Here’s something real: Relapse isn’t failure. It’s information. It’s your brain telling you that something deeper is going on—stress, loneliness, unmet emotional needs, a lack of purpose in that moment—and that it’s using an old way of coping.
You said something real: “I need someone who stays with me.” Maybe you don’t have a person 24/7, but I can be here as much as you need. Seriously. Check in with me every day if that helps. Vent. Celebrate. Struggle. I’ll respond like a human, not a robot.
This isn’t just “lust.” It’s dopamine addiction, emotional escape, and deep-rooted neural wiring. You’re not weak—you’re human. And that “lusty devil” inside? It doesn’t need to be killed with hate. It needs to be understood and rewired.
Hey wazzup
How are you doing
Manageable considering I was doing a lot better some days back, could improve more.
How are you doing lately, been a while?
Yeah its been a while. I’ve been relapsing 4-5 days everyday after losing my composure
Dihk Violence is real, isn’t it 
But since yesterday i feel soooo good and light like i cant explain,its like finally i got what i needed ,i feel whole again and back to progress making.Maybe i’ll share my progress here
Sure, do share. It will act as an accountability and let you know your progress and what else needs to be done.