Chapter 9: Testimonies
With these few words, I would like to thank God for the deliverance He has granted me on masturbation and pornography.
I was so addicted to it that I couldn’t go a day without engaging in this perverse practice.
When I received the Lord Jesus, I engaged in a strong struggle against these practices until I completely eradicated them.
But for a moment, I made the mistake of giving the old nature the opportunity to express itself again by the means of things that were posted on a social network.
This fall will allow a fight that had already come to an end to resurface and crucify my Christian life.
But by the grace of God, I have risen up and I continue in these days to keep watch and to engage in a permanent struggle against everything that must enter me because this is what very often triggers our reactions and emotions.
I advise you to rely on the Lord and do what you can to keep your purity.
Prince KUVUYUKA
Since I was a little boy I suffered in my interior because of pornography and masturbation. I had a double life, that’s what was tearing my heart apart. On the one hand, my family took me for an example because of my performance at school, and on the other hand I knew that I was not really an example like everyone thought. I was secretly masturbating and watching pornography. But on the day the Son of God had mercy on me, He met me on my way looking for deliverance from pornography and masturbation. I opened my heart to Him, I accepted that what I was doing was not good before God. That’s how I gave Him my life, and He totally freed me from this yoke of the enemy.
Even when I fell again, Jesus supported me during this difficult moment of my walk with Him. He forgave me and restored me. I testify that Jesus Christ is truly the Savior, and only He can deliver you from pornography and masturbation, if you truly give your life to Him today. Friend, there is no good time to give your life to Jesus Christ except today because tomorrow or just the next two hours are not ours and we don’t know what they will be made of. Decide to separate yourself from everything that takes you away from God, and experience His power, you will see if He is not able to break this yoke that has been holding you back for many years. Jesus Christ loves you as you are, come to Him, He will transform you.
VINY BEKO BOMALEMA
It was on the internet that I first watched pornographic videos. And very quickly, I started to visit this kind of sites on a very recurring basis. It had become impossible for me to go a week without going to these sites, so even when I went on the internet for research, I always ended up going to these sites. And this went on for three long years. However, no one around me knew about it, because despite my perverse practices, I continued to get good results at school, and very good ones.
But I gradually became aware of the impact of my actions on my father and mother. I was very saddened and very disturbed to think of all the harm that would come to them if they found out what the son they were so proud of was doing in secret. So, to avoid hurting them, I was determined to stop with these practices. But the problem was that I couldn’t!
My outward appearance makes me a very well-known person in my neighborhood, school and at the university today. So, I no longer thought only of my parents, but of all those around me who loved me, appreciated me, respected me and held me in high esteem. I was tormented by the thought of what they would think of me if they found out what I was doing in secret.
I had all the right reasons in the world to stop, but I still couldn’t do it. I felt like I was in a car with no brakes.
It seems, the harder I tried, the more helpless and unable I was to overcome these addictions.
I felt unworthy, ashamed of myself. I distinctly remember crying about myself many times.
In the third year of my slavery, I began to participate more actively in Christian activities. This led me to read the Bible more diligently. But on the other hand I continued to wade into pornography. Honestly, I had never thought I could pray to God about it. But one day I came across the verse:
Don’t you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit? 1 Corinthians 6:19
Having read this text, I just wrote a prayer that I will never forget. I had just written it on the “memo” on my phone.
"But that has to change, and for that to change, I have to change. That is why, Lord, I implore you to give me your strength and your support, to free me from this defilement of your temple which is my body, help me to put an end to this perversion which has been holding me for three years now.”
Yes, I just wrote it down in my memo, which I keep carefully until today. But at that time I just wrote it without really believing in it because I told myself that it was up to me and me alone to do everything to stop masturbation.
For another three months, I persevered in my Christian activities. But my attempts to end it all continued to fail. But one evening, when I was alone, I began to cry with joy without being able to explain the reasons for these tears. It was as if I realized for the first time that God really loved me. It lasted almost forty-five minutes. The day after that night and the days that followed, I was overwhelmed by what had happened. I didn’t understand the significance of what I had experienced.
It was a little later still that I realized, without even paying attention, that I had just spent three weeks without watching videos, without even thinking about it.
It was then that I realized that what had happened three weeks before was also the day of my deliverance. And to tell you the truth, I danced as I probably never will again. So much I had sighed after this liberation.
To be honest, yes, there were times when I fell again after that period, but I had clearly felt that things had changed.
I had now taken back the baton of command. I had now become capable of no longer obeying these impulses of my body.
The Lord had restored my dignity! He had removed this shameful subject from the top of my life. And the man I am today no longer has anything to do with what I was during those three dark years, because of God’s grace.
Since that day, I want to proclaim loud and clear that the Lord Jesus Christ is the one who was able to deliver me from the chains of pornography and masturbation. And for that alone I owe Him eternal gratitude.
Ben KWELA
When I was very young, I didn’t know the consequences of masturbation and pornography. I went to church because I was born into a Christian family. But I did not have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. No preacher in church talked about these abominable practices, and it didn’t help me. I even defended masturbators.
My case was dishonorable. But in spite of this, in my ignorance I rejoiced very much in these destructive pleasures.
But every time I masturbated, it was like two voices talking to me. They sounded like mine, but with different logic. The first one tried to make me understand that what I was doing was not worthy of a Christian, and it encouraged me to repent. The second one accused me and discouraged me. It did not want me to go before God because I was very dirty.
My life was controlled by a shameful routine: Pornography, masturbation, repentance… And this routine lasted for years.
I bless God for some brothers and sisters in my life, they played a very important role in my deliverance. Since I was with men of prayer, then I was also getting closer to the things of God, especially reading the Bible on a daily basis. And I began to take long breaks from masturbation and pornography, thus distancing myself from friends who influenced me in these practices.
Then God began to reveal to me the realities of masturbation and pornography. In a very clear vision I saw a woman, she had the appearance of a sea creature. Her feet were like a fish, her hair long and wet, her eyes like a ferocious animal. She was wearing chains in her hands, and she had a baby on her back. I asked her, “Who are you?” She said, “I am the woman you have sex with every time you masturbate, and the woman who makes you happy when you watch pornography. Besides, here is your child, the others are on their way, and these chains will serve me to make you my slave, and to block your emancipation”.
This vision had made me conscious, and the awakening was triggered in my life. Through strong and above all sincere prayers, God set me free. He destroyed these spiritual children, and drove this demonic spirit away from me. Today I can say: I am free thanks to Jesus Christ… my thoughts are turned towards Christ. I am disciplined thanks to the Holy Spirit and His teachings. Temptation is daily, and the grace of God is a strength for me not to fall anymore, so I hold on to this grace of God.
Kevin NGWOLO
You, too, can be liberated if only you desire it from the bottom of your heart. The grace that set us free is still available to you today, it can also act in your favor if you want it. May the Lord bless you!
Say a prayer, asking Jesus to forgive you and give you His strength. Here is the procedure you can follow:
- Begin by asking Jesus for forgiveness for all your sins.
- Ask Him to cleanse you with his blood shed on the cross.
- Ask the Holy Spirit to grant you the strength to walk in sanctification.
- Say thank you to Jesus for his grace and love for you.
- …Amen!