Questions/Answers
Anne : How will I know that I have been delivered?
Georges: When you find that you haven’t watched pornography for several days, it happens sometimes without you paying too much attention. When there’s some kind of force inside you that prevents you from going to see these things. When those bad thoughts don’t even reach your brain anymore. When you see these things, never again dare to expose yourself to erotic scenes or anything that might awaken your sexual impulses, and go into prayer, discipline and fasting again. I am talking about serious prayers.
If after a seminar or times of strong prayers in the church you really feel that you are able to give that up, because in you, you feel like a strength that can help you not to fall anymore, know that deliverance is there, it is the end, you are delivered. At this time, you will have to watch and pray more than you have already done. Continue to pray, fast regularly and discipline yourself. Every day, you have to watch over Anne.
If after a fall, you find that you were able to not fall because there was some kind of force inside you that prevented you from looking at these things, know that deliverance is already there. Get up and continue your journey while learning from your mistakes.
How did I know I was delivered?
Strange thing! It was after a fall that I knew I had already been released. If I had fallen that day it was my own fault, as you sometimes. That’s how it happened.
By the way, when I would connect to the internet at night (something that should really be avoided) to download music, videos, etc., my very first reflex was to go and watch the pornographic videos because the sexual impulses I felt were stronger than me. But after I joined my prayer group, things changed, at first I didn’t know that the Lord Jesus had already set me free. But one day, as I logged on at night to do my downloads, I realized that I felt no desire to watch pornographic videos, no desire to masturbate, I felt a strength within me that preserved me from these things. But you know what my friend, I had fallen anyway. On that day, at least I was the one who wanted to look at these things (like you do too, sometimes you look at them because you still love them) because the Lord had already given me the strength not to fall anymore. And it was after this voluntary fall that I realized that I had already been set free. I asked for forgiveness for what I had done, the Lord forgave me, I gave myself up again to prayer because I knew that that was where the Lord’s strength came from. And the Lord supports me to this day. I am no longer captive to any sin that I always fall into, I live a full Christian life. And I will not cease to proclaim loud and clear that my Jesus Christ is my Savior.
You too, when you see that in you there is no longer any desire to look at pornography even when you are alone, there is no longer any desire to masturbate even when you are alone, know that the Lord has already delivered you.
Anne: How long do I have to wait to be delivered?
Georges: Everything depends on your seriousness towards the Lord, everything depends on your will, everything depends on you. Jesus Christ can deliver you even now. And I announce to you that He has just done so. What you have to do now is to watch over your way of life and pray that you don’t fall into temptation again. One of the reasons you are falling is because you are not praying enough for this sin that has been holding you back for many years. You pray only when you fall to ask for forgiveness, but you don’t pray every day to have the strength to leave this evil forever. Along with prayer, you must always be vigilant. The devil will tempt you every day, and you too must be clever to avoid falling. No longer fight directly against pornography and masturbation, the fight must be turned towards yourself now. Fight against this laziness that prevents you from praying, fight against this bad habit of spending a lot of time in front of your smartphone instead of praying, fight against yourself to stay in the presence of the Lord and avoid temptations. May God bless you and grant you the strength to walk in purity. Amen!