Welcome back bro! 
It’s been a while talking to you!
I totally understand your reasons for not staying up on the forum. I did the same thing for similar reasons & ended up relapsing too.
We feel like we can continue on our own from that point, when we hit the high streaks. But it really starts going downhill from that point.
I once came across this youtube video from a channel called ‘better ideas’. In that he says that your current act decides what your next action is going to be.
Every action is followed by it’s execution, then reward, & the reward serves as motivation for more action. & Repeat.
This sounds vague, but is actually a strong concept.
Works with each & every behavioural pattern we follow.
So when you do some kind of action, even if it as simple as having a shower. It actually decides what your next action should be. Then slowly, it becomes a loop, then a habit, & starts growing. Either Uphill or Downhill.
What we did was kind of similar.
We chose to procrastinate our on the forum & moved to having lazier ways of spending those little free times we get. Action feeds your next action. So,
It became a loop…
And a habit. Then went downhill right to the point we used to be before. To the Relapse.
The sad thing is that we understand the value of this forum only when we relapse.
PMO addiction is like a disease. We can cure it. But that doesn’t mean we won’t have it again. We need to maintain our health in order to stay safe from it.
We are not here to free ourselves from the habit once & for all.
We are here to develop a habit of freeing ourselves from it everytime we get an attack of getting back to it. So we need to follow our strategies, throughout our lives. It gets easier & easier to do the strategy & stay free from PMO. But we still need to keep practicing & not feel like we don’t need it anymore when it becomes totally easy at some point.
People who go to the gym regularly do not stop going to the gym once they get a ripped & muscular body they desired. They won’t go “Ohh now that I have abs now I need not come to the gym anymore!”
They eventually lose all muscle & become unhealthy again when they quit. But that doesn’t mean that going to the gym is a difficult task to them as it used to be on their day 1.
Going to the gym & exercising though becomes an easy task for them which they can take for granted. But it helps them alot in maintaining what musculature they have built.
Same goes with the forum.
Sometimes I feel like there’s more bad in the world than good. There are countless things on the internet which tend to drag us to that pit again.
Those people are thriving while getting us hooked to them, destroying countless lives & earning from it so coldly. Where is human kind going to, really?
I look forward to speaking to you once again on a daily basis. Like we used to!
Our conversation seems to have had stopped at some point when we both went offline.
Let’s just start a fresh one…
See you soon at “Check-in” Daily - diary challenge!