I have been on porn for more than 6 years now and along the way I got addicted to it.
One of the ways I have tried to stop is try to get an accountability partner or someone who will keep me in check. So far, I have opened up to 3 friends about it.
To be honest, it didn’t help because they never checked up on me or asked about it again. It’s almost as if I never told them. This is a big deal for me, as it took massive courage to tell them I need help and now it’s like they have a secret of mine in their hands.
Now to be honest, I don’t blame them. I kinda understand that they have a lot of on their plates and in hindsight I didn’t put that into consideration.
So how do I choose an accountability partner?
- I can’t tell my girlfriend yet because I am scared she probably won’t help much and it might change us in the long run even though I know I should tell her
- I can’t tell my family. My dad and Mum would break down and it would certainly add a lot to their plates and right now their plates are quite full. They would also bother me and use it to get at me one day unconsciously.
- I can’t tell my best friend coz I feel he checks porn also. I have seen porn on his phone even though it was a long time ago
Please what can I do?