Hmmmm…
…I relapsed on day 11(just to get this cleared up I’m not starting another diary:sweat_smile:) I’m not genuinely sad or mad I’m netrual, this relapse woke me up a bit. I had a bad day yesterday, and then I had a dream where I was watching porn, woke up with extreme urges and also a bit depressed (because of the previous day) , I held the first wave of urges in, But the second was REALLY POWERFUL.
And…I relapsed 
. I was reading my 2nd Journal called: hensmkekdmrme trying to make it and it was really nice I really wrote down alot of my emotions on it and it’s when I made my 37 day streak which was amazing for me. I’ll writing down my tasks again (promise), it’ll be fun.
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Monday, August 24th, 10:10 PM:
Phone time: more than 6 hours today 
(I shouldn’t do this on my first day of recovery)
Wake up early 
(7am)
Reading (I read very little tho)
Practice German
Exercise
Meditation 
Affirmation
Today was a really good day I got ot connect with one of favorite people today, and practiced and listened to tons of German I’m hoping to be fairly fluent in 2 years or so (will see)
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1 hour YouTube?
Quit that crap bro 
It doesn’t really help us.
Read books instead for self improvement.
There is a strong beast within you, Remember. Once you commit 100% nothing in this world will stand before you. This time, no excuses take action and make it happen
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Dude I like watching DW documentaries alot, if I stick to just the informative/useful stuff I believe it’s actually good, plus I don’t find enjoyment in those mindless YouTube videos 
, please tell me your opinion on this???
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Tuesday, August 25th, 11:37 PM:
Today was a boring day. Not much happened, I realized I’m still a bit socially akward which I’m not happy with, because everyone should know how important social intelligence is, and that’s why I’m surrounding my self with as much really social confident people.
Wake up early (it was unnecessary today just let my body sleep)
Practice German
Exercise
Affirmation
Reading (I did some internet reading on nutrition don’t know if it counts)
Meditation (I’ve lately been to lazy to do this but I must start cause laziness is bullshit and not for me )
Wake up time: 9:13 AM, Urge report: mild
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Wednesday, August 26th, 11:53 PM:
Today’s day 3 of my 2nd comeback 
Today was also a fairly good day…
Wake up early (7:02) 
(ill be sleeping in today)
Exercise
Affirmation
Practice German
Reading 
Meditation (I need to get back on track with this 
)
This has was the to do list Ive been following, this was the old to do list of @Tagore I like it because I find it simple and effective, I just need to be more consistent so tommorow no YouTube at all.
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Bro, stay consistent with this routine. You’ll take your life to the next level in 2-3 months. I guarantee that. I’ve experienced drastic changes in my last streak of 112 days when I stayed Consistent with my routine.
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Just finished praying friday prayers for the first time in months I’m very happy, I feel recharged and at peace.
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I justed relapsed , this time I binged. This is the last straw on the camels back.
@_TIGER @Tagore @Prox @anon14496424 @Aman1 @Deadpoolgupta @MM2020 @TheFinalFrontier @drago @Sahas , I’m sorry if I left anyone out but I need everyone to hear this if I relapse before 2021 I’ll post a voice note of myself speaking, I know it might not be huge, but I gotta to make such a commitment. Currently there are 124 days till 2020 is over this is not going to be easy.
Let’s do this 
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Don’t be upset bro. Struggling makes us Strong. I know you…you would definitely make it. Keep up this Spirit. 
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hey bro… its completely Ok… but I want you to analyse yourself… what makes you to relapse work on that …
Sometimes it seems HARD
Sometimes it seems IMPOSSIBLE
Sometimes it seems BORED
BUT IF IT DOESN’T CHALLENGE YOU,
THEN IT WON’T CHANGE YOU.
I know you can do it …You are born as a legend and legend never defeat …Don’t giveup whatever comes up … Be strong and positive … You can do it bro … …Its matter of time … … Lets do it …
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I think enjoying by time and effective video will be good ?! We just have to keep our time in our hands …
I want to ask you which app is effective to handle the timing on my mobile ?! And if I try to use it it will says , THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME ?!
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Is it possible on Rewire app to send voice note !!
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I can make a small video with my voice, it’s not that hard.
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You can use my phone time to track your phone time and screen time to limit app usage.
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September 2nd, 12:23 PM:
Days left till 2021: 121 days.
3/124
I will win this time, I know it, I can feel it. Once I get to my 2021 goal I’ll leave this forum and be happy…
.
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Good luck fellow countryman
تحيا مصر 
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Ok bros I relapsed and also recorded the voice note after I relapsed I prayed and then took the voice note it really lifted my spirit 
. I will put it up for 6 hous so whoever sees it sees it.
Wait it’s not letting me put it on the forum. I’ll try to get it on here.