I am doing fapping from last 11 years. Before 6-7 years I used to fap for 2,3 times per day. Now I’m doing it for one day because of urges and because I feel tremendous knee pain and feel like the lubrication between bone gets reduced after fapping. I have lack of motivation of doing anything. I have less attention span. I need constant support of people to do things. I feel mindless. Im paranoid. I drop the thinking and baggage of mind to other people. I was also having the habit of stress eating, but due to problems such as acidity I controlled it. My willpower is less and I also do not have courage to make decisions. I think I might be escapist also. I lose interest fast. I do not bath daily and I feel very hard of going to bath. I am living a comforting life. My place is clutttered like anything. I get irritated easily. Im kind of control freak. I’m aware that the mind state which I’m currently in is not good. I’m sloppy. I play mobile games for 1 hours, I watch YouTube for more than an hour, insta for half an hour,I read news a lot but it’s reduced than before. I browse for an hour in a day
I have been trying to understand myself from lot of time, hence I have written critical finding about myself but I may also have some good qualities.
My age is 25 and Its really a high point to change the things. I have issue to touch my private part a lot of times in day while working from home. And when I’m watching anything alone. I do not fap a lot , but I touch my part a lot and I sometimes scratch my butt also. There is also urge for this along with fapping. Due to frequent touching, I am not able to quit fapping.
The longest streak I was having was for 17 days. Then at 18th day I thought and told myself that why quit this pleasure, let’s fap for once in week and feel good. I also thought that some how not masturbating will for a long time will also not be good for me. Thinking about doing once a week I started to do it daily nowadays. I feel doing once a week is not possible for me. I’m posting here because I feel this is the app made for same purpose.
I have not done fapping today and I touched ps in the night because I had a headache. I’m scratchimg my bt Whenever I scratch my bt, I feel like my hand is dirty and I get stuck and not able to do other things and it increases my frustration. My one hand becomes idle till I wash it. Such a waste of time.
It feels good at that moment. I avoided quitting because I waited for perfect time eg when I do not have work related pressure or when I do not have any important work to do to reach my goals. I tried to avoid headaches of not fapping and breaking the fapping habit. I thought stopping fapping will affect my short time goals. I feel that a month or so will be required to stop this masturbation and that time will be gone in a pain.
I am realising that this habit is comparable to drinking… Because I’m not successfully able to quit it. Somehow I get triggered and I relapse again.
Ok I will find one. I fantasized for 2 hours from 1-30 am to 3-30 am. I tried to do fapping and did not let sperm come out. And in morning first thing I did was scratch the b**t.
@na_sh take a rubber band and tie your hands with it, after that sit down and meditate. If that is tough then just hold your hands behind your back and close your eyes, sit down and don’t think about anything, just empty your mind. Forget that the world exists and there are things such as humans. Forget about everything you’ve known. Practice this daily for as long as you can and soon you will get results. Your thinking will be clear and sharp. Also stay away from electronic devices because they really fill our heads with dirt
Bro you are in serious issue right now. Why you are scratching ur b**t without any reason.
Keep yourself as busy as possible. Remember the saying that an empty mind is a mind. If you let your mind to command yourself,you will soon end up in hell.
I’m heavily addcited to both the things. Today I tried to keep myself busy and did not wear comfortable clothing. It helped. But I have headache because of controlling my compulsive behavior.
Sometimes I wonder if masturbaton is bad habit or it is human nature. I definitely knew drinking/smoking is not good, hence I never got addicted to it. But regarding masturbation I don’t find any data that says that it hampers you to grow.
I need strong reason to quit because I’m heavily addicted to it
Ok thank you for info!
I feel I’m more into edging nowadays and scratching balls/as"""le. I have reduced frequency of scratching. Now I only need to know the know more strong reasons to quit masturbating or frequently touching my private parts for any of fapping or edging or scratching.
I relate with the responsibility part and not looking for instant gratification or doing things that causes temporary pleasure.
I also want to mindful. I do lot of mindless activities in a day. That is my problem.
I have still not realised some things of my behavior.
Im not a porn addict but I used to watch sensual videos/pics on YouTube and insta. I have reduced it now and I am having self control.
I just realised that last time I relapsed because I thought edging was harmless. Last time I did not take help of any website or forum to quit masturbation.
I was just fed by my very filthy low life behavior which wasted lot of my time and productivity. It was enough already.
I feel now that I spent lot of time on edging when I tried to quit masturbation before. I have realised the mistake but this challenge has turned a lot harder now. Edging is wasting lot more time than masturbation and because I feel more in control since I’m not ejaculating I used to do it happily. Gonna stop this also.
I’m trying hard to keep myself falling. Headache is still there and also edging habit needs to be dealt with. Seems harder. God bless me.
I still like to see alternative videos to porn. I have reduced its quantity but it’s still there in my feed and all…I feel why to give up on those nice sensual videos. Haven’t quit them yet. I feel there is no harm in watching it without fapping or edging. Though it can cause me to lose control and relapse.
mind. If you let your mind to command yourself,you will soon end up in hell.