So Yeah -I Relapsed Guys
I Had Gone For A Streak Of 150 Days -And After Relapsing, The Loop That I Used To Find Myself In Finally Got me .
Well For Those Who Who Dont Know Me -I Was Previously A Member Of This Supportive Community , And Took Inspiration From One Of Evil Vices Itself “Ego”
Well I Basically had Turned My Problem Into A Dare By Saying That I wouldnt Show my face here , This Is Something I Would Not At All Recommend Guys …Ego Is Eventually Gonna Make You Relapse .
Reasons For Relapse (Just For Talking My Heart Out -Sorry)
- My Crush Told That She Had A Crush On My BestFriend -Who Also Had Recirocally ,however
Both Couldnt Act On It Due To The Pandemic.
- My Classes Had Started For A New Grade And Basically There Was A Ton Of Work Given
Along With A Really Limited Deadline.
- I Also Found Out That The School I Am Going to Study In Has A Really Low Selection Rate -
That Is Basically Nobody Ever Made It To That Particular College - Even Tho They Did Get Into Some Really Commendable Colleges .
- Also -I Was Basically Alone During The Whole Pandemic -In Terms Of Interaction With Friends -As I Had Shut Down Insta Twitter Facebook And Was Limited Using Of Whatsapp Too.
- I Had Begun Playing Io Games Online Due to less ram in Pc - And Watched Endless Web Series
- My Mind Was Basically Filled With Fog And A LOOOOOOOTT Of Stress For The First Time In My Life Personally
- And Even Though I Had Been On About 148 Days - I Had Suddenly Got Intense Brain fog
Today I Reset My Streak After DAAAAAAAYSSSS OF Resetting - with 2-6 Days Maximum
This Time Around Though -I Really Have A Good Amount Of Hope For This
I Did Not MO Today But Did Watch P And I Am Definitely Feeling A Sense Of Guilt As Today Something Literally Life Changing Happened To Me ,
So I Made Up 1 CHALLENGE FOR MYSELF (If U Wanna Try Out, U r Welcome)
So Basically I Have An Exam In 2 Years Consisting Of About 600-700 Marks
And To Get Into My Dream College -I Want To Be The One With The Max Score EVER
Every Time I Feel An Urge For PMO. I Tell Myself That If I Do PMO -I Am Losing 50% Of My Goal
And The Reset is Only Possible At The Rate Of 1% Per Day
Other Than That -Its Not Possible To Go Above A 100% Though The Deducting Can Go Below 0%
Therefore for 100 days Streak With Your Goal Continuously In Mind , U Are Basically Having much Fewer Relapses-Maybe Even None -If U R Dedicated Enough
Now - This Was A Technique I Used And It Didnt Work After 150 days for 1 reason - My Goal Was done -And I Didnt Have A New One .
From December To March I Had A Continuous Aim For A Goal -And I Had Been Able to Complete My Goal- But Basically the “Urge-Eliminating Mechanism” Was Gone Guys
So I Am Aiming To Have A Really Long Streak Of No PMO From This Goal -Until I Get Into My Dream College (It is An Ivy League College In India and Only 50 Students Are Selected Out of About 1.5 Million Students Giving the Exam Basically )
I Know I Can Crack This - Just I Need To Have A Clear, Curious Mind Similar to the Last time I was On The Nofap Streak .
I Wish Every Single Person Reading This Success Happiness And Also That All Their Dreams Will Come True.
As For The Challenge Guys - I am Starting It Today Onwards - No-Pmo-Goal-Percent Challenge.
In Addition to that I Was Initially Planning to Enroll For A Few Challenges On This Forum Too ,
However Cant Do So Since I Do Not Have The App Right Now- I Have Locked The Tablet And Kept It Aside As It Has Caused Me A Few Relapses.
So Today 14 JUNE 2020 - STARTS MY STREAK And It Shall Go On Indefinitely Until I Get Into My Dream College .
@Forerunner -Hello Brother -Been A Long Time , Sad To See That U Had Relapsed
But Still i Am Really Happy As U Did Not Get Controlled By Chaser Effect as I Had Before And Got To Day 19 Too. Wish You All The Best Brother -Hope You Get Even Longer Streaks And Leave This Addiction Forever.