Great commitment, I send you Divine will power. Keep your discipline, after all those months of relapses you know how it’s affecting you. You have all the knowledge and power that you need in your hands. You can really do it now.
Peace
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It’s time for change, brother.
We have to do the things we’ve been avoiding. Make real change. If we don’t change our habits, then the addiction will remain.
Read through your diary from beginning to end and be inspired to end your pain and suffering. You deserve so much better than the life you’re allowing yourself to live right now. You’re a good-natured, considerate, intelligent man with great potential. It’s time you lived up to that potential.
We are watching your diary and eagerly awaiting the day it becomes a success story!
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Dear friend, I promise I will.
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2020 diary #successstory
Oct 23, 05:45 AM
Jan- 2
Feb- 4
March- 4
April- 6
May- 4
June- 4
July- 6
August- 4
September- 4
October- 4
Total- 41
You can’t do worst than August and September… Please don’t do it again in October.
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2020 diary #successstory
Oct 27, 05:00 AM
Jan- 2
Feb- 4
March- 4
April- 6
May- 4
June- 4
July- 6
August- 4
September- 4
October- 5
Total- 42
2020 diary #successstory
Oct 30, 03:00 AM
Jan- 2
Feb- 4
March- 4
April- 6
May- 4
June- 4
July- 6
August- 4
September- 4
October- 6
Total- 43
You did it… 
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Today i went through all your diary.
It is quite painful to see that once you were on day 56 in 2019 and you were finding solutions to your problems.
Now, in 2020 all i see is you are counting no. Of relapses each month.
It is Time to find your magical sword.
And say
BY THE POWER OF MY SOUL,
I HAVE THE POWER
Make your afraid mind ( tiger ) a fearless weapon
YOU ARE THE MASTER OF THE UNIVERSE.
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@HE-MAN123
Bro do intense workout and meditation, as life is short and u cant spend whole life in fighting PMO…
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I give you my words. I will do it now.
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Bro, I will do it by all and every means now… I will definitely quit watching porn and masturbation. 
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Bro we’re all patiently waiting for you to go from
This
To This
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Funny gifs forerunner, is it me or someone else find the first gif funny 
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@Aanand_vijay do you think for me it has been easy?? Look at my fucking diary of shame. Read it. I also was telling next time will be better and relapsed and relapsed. 200 pages of my diary. I didn’t treat it seriously. Ooh nothing bad happened… Just relapsed. Fuck no. And what, after year I’m in the same place what year before. But yeah, nothing bad happedned. Just try again xd either we treat seriously us, our friends, our recovery or it is a fucking entertainment of telling everyone that “i relapsed again haha” and everyone will be telling words like “ooo it’s not your fault, this bad addiction did it to you… Bad addiction…”. “nothing bad happens”… Guys. We have to be serious.
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Everyone patting each other for the back. I think some people like be here becouse of friendship they create here but when our friend relapses and we build higher streak we are more and more away from him. And what do you guys think? To what it leads? To create a warm place of losers who are friends forever. I want to be friend with someone who treat it seriously where we can climb to this fucking mountain of addiction and conquer it. Not working like Sisyphus and start all over again. This is like a flock of beggars who drinking alhohol together and when one of them trying to go away the rest is like " what’s wrong with you? Do you don’t drink with me?? We drink a lot and now you trying to leave me??" kurwa… This is how it looks like. So if everyone want to be friend of mine I’m open but one relapse and we not knowing each other. Time to treat is seriously. So who is going to be my friend?
I’m writing it to all of you. Not personally to the author of this diary.
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That’s not true bhai. Most people on this forum are not serious. I spent years myself not being serious.
In my personal written diary, there are hundreds of entries of me saying “I swear that that was the very last time,” only to relapse again a few days later. It looks similar to this diary, and I spent YEARS writing the same stuff. I didn’t make any changes in my life, I didn’t do any of the things I knew I needed to do in order to improve my life. I kept blaming PMO for all my problems, but the problem was me. My life was going poorly in many areas - spirituality, relationships, career prospects and education, finances, hobbies and personal goals, and there was no one to blame besides myself. It’s only when we start to make changes that we see progress.
@udaCisie is correct. @HE-MAN123 is a dear friend and I care about him and his success. I want to see him come out of this cycle of pain and misery. This diary is like a record of someone self-harming, it’s so painful to follow it. I am watching the diary and I read every post, but what can I say at this point? He never listens. He just makes another promise and breaks it a few days later.
We would be lying if we said he was taking this seriously. It’s clear that he’s in deep pain, we all know the pain that causes an addict to return to his poison of choice. But he isn’t taking it seriously. He doesn’t listen to any advice people give him or truly take in the support of those who come here to be with him and walk him through this. He keeps focusing on the days, the number of relapses a month or a year and it is OBVIOUS that nothing has changed in his life. He learned back in 2018 what triggers cause him to relapse and he isn’t doing anything to change that.
My hypothesis right now is that he has a terrible sleep routine, he isn’t exercising, he is isolated, he isn’t studying or working towards career goals. It is UNDERSTANDABLE that someone in that position would be relapsing every week. It’s a painful existence, knowing that you could be so much more, that your life can be so much better, and you are not taking the effort to change it. Addiction is pain avoidance, and there is enough pain there for him to repeat this cycle for years. Perhaps he hasn’t reached rock bottom yet. Maybe the pain which is clear to all of us reading his diary isn’t enough for him. He’s waiting until 2030 to finally snap out of it.
OR, he can stop TODAY and take his life seriously. Finally start listening to the advice of others. Ask for help. Make a plan that focuses not only on NoPMO - that is essential but it cannot be the only thing - but on improving his health, spirituality, relationships, career, finances, goals and hobbies and so on. To take proper care of himself and love himself for who he is. He is an intelligent, respectful, considerate, inspiring person. He gives to other people but nothing to himself.
We can spend years trying to change, but it’s only when we’re truly serious and start taking positive action like our lives depend on it that we actually do.
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Brother @HE-MAN123 I too have been following your diary and was trying to help you as well. But you are doing it wrong most of the times.
Counting your relapse doesn’t work. Focus on the other side, work on yourself daily. This isn’t an easy addiction to beat. It is hard, it is painful but we have to do it anyway. No one has said doing pmo was worth it.
Please listen to this words @Forerunner has said.
Please take your time and get real serious.
Do whatever it takes.
Break your phone.
Tell your parents or your wife or anyone.
The time you are wasting will never come back. Please, these words of @Forerunner are very important to all of us, I believe.
Please take it seriously. We all want you to grow man.
Sincerely.
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