Thanks for that bro! 
. I love all the support this forum gives.
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Bro don’t focus too much on day 52 . When I started this journey I usually relapsed at 2nd day . After completing 1 day of abstinence, I would be like tomorrow is the day that I have to be ready as Many urges will strike. And always ended up relapsing .
Let ur 52nd day be just another day of abstinence .
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Pardon my brain, it likes to know everything and latches onto weird stuff, so…
With each other or with different people?
Don’t ask me why I want to know this because idk just my brain won’t leave me alone 
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With each other bro. Initially we were a group of 4 guys. One of my friends got into a relationship with his friend from school who were also in our college. She brought along her gang of 5 girls. So our gang became 9. All of us are besties. We used to chill out together all the time. One of the 5 girls is my girl:joy:
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it is as I presumed.
Imagine how OP I would be if I was this big brain for studies
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Imagine if I was this big brain for anything
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Y’are neeerd xD
GTG have an exam in 5 mins
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I GTG play too! Seeya:v:
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Day 36
5-2-2021
Friday
I’m gonna keep this short because I need to sleep early and get up super early. I’m going on a bike ride with my friends to Nandi hills tomorrow morning. Anyway, last night I either had sexual thoughts or dreams coz I don’t know if I was asleep or awake at that time. I woke up late today morning. Logged into my classes and started working out. The muscle groups hit:
Chest X2
Upper back X2
Middle back X2
Core X2
I watched a couple of episodes of yu yu hakusho. Then I attended a webinar by the in house council for KFC, taco bell and other fast food lines. It was a brilliant webinar. Then I had to do one assignment. After that I went to play badminton with my friends. We played for 2 continuous hours. Now I’m preparing for tomorrow’s trip. Ok peace 
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Day 37
6-2-2021
Saturday
Since it was our trip today, I decided to wake up at 2:45 am and get ready for the trip. I only slept at 11:30 last night. But apparently, I woke up before 2:45 am on my own, and without the help of alarm. I got ready by 3:30am and met up with my friends at 4 am. My friends those assholes, woke up late and delayed our trip a bit. We were supposed to leave by 4 but we only left by 4:30. Anyway, we were 8 people on 4 bikes. It’s was super fucking cold, my fingers were numb because of driving so much in that cold. Anyway we reached there a bit late. We missed sunrise by like 20 minutes. We spent our time there goofing around doing what we do best. Took a lot of pictures and videos, time lapses etc. It was fun trip. A much needed one actually. We left at around 11 am and reached home at 1 pm. Since I woke up super early, I thought I’d pass out once I reach home. unfortunately for me, I couldn’t fall asleep. After a couple of hours, I went ahead and played badminton for an hour. Honestly I don’t know how I had that much energy to play like I did. Sleep deprived and improper diet had me worried, but it turned out well. Anyway that was it. I could go on and on about the trip itself, but then I’d be here all night. So that’s it. Best day. Super relaxing. Long Bike rides with friends are simply the best! And to people who think car rides are better… Fuck off! You don’t know what you are missing
Ok peace out 
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How can car rides be better than bike without the breeze hitting you 
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Exactly!
The feeling is just amazingly different!
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Day 38
7-2-2021
Sunday
I woke up at 8 and went to church! I was still sleepy, I don’t think I got enough sleep. But anyway, I dressed up sharp today. I was extra formal. I even wore cufflinks, how dope is that! Also a lot of new girls turned up in our church. Good news for my Bois . After coming from church I went to my father’s office. I had some work there. It took much longer than I expected. The excel sheets were not making sense so I had to tally them. After coming back I thought I’d eat lunch and pass out. But I have was too late so I skipped lunch and played badminton for 2 hours.. After staying hungry and sleep deprived for so long, I came back home and ate the most healthy food one can get… I ate a lot of Maggie . That’s about it though. Oh and I’ve been binge listening to a song called “delicate” by Damien rice. I’ve heard this song and it’s in my liked songs playlist, but today while I listened, the lyrics hit home, a lot of my past memories resurfaced, stuff that I thought I forgot or got over at least. The memories are painful and the the song is a slow and sad one. But it hits home! Ok that’s it. Peace out
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Day 39
8-2-2021
Monday
I woke up at 9 today, I wanted to sleep more though, but I had classes so I had to get up. I logged into classes and started working out. I only did 2 muscle groups coz I did 2 last Friday and I had to get things in order. The muscle groups were
Calves X2
Forearms X2
Simple workout, but the isolation burn got me. It was intense eventhough the muscle groups were small. I had a presentation in my current affairs class today. I had to talk about the budget 2021-22. It was alright. Then I ate my first meal. I’m still following intermittent fasting. It got disrupted over the weekend but I’m back on track. I ate my first meal at 1:30 today. Anyway, I watched the 9th episode of attack on Titan season 4 and a couple of episodes of yu yu hakusho. Then I fell asleep. When I woke up, I saw that my friends had decided to play. The whole gang was ready. We played for 2 hours from 6-8. I came back, ate, prayed and I’ll just probably sleep now. I need to sleep more. I also plan to wake up a bit more earlier so that I can work out more. I do have sexual thoughts nowadays. Kids call it fantasising these days. Whatever it may be called, I was having sex in my thoughts . I try to shake it off as soon as it comes, but it’s getting more frequent. And I know it will only intensify from tomorrow as it’s day 40 tomorrow. All of my streaks have perished in the 40-50 day period, except my highest streak. So that’s it! Peace out
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Bro just stay extra productive for next 10 days, avoid triggers if possible , you will get through.
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Though I should be taking advice from you, because apparently you have crossed 40 days many times and this 27 days is highest for me
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Yea my CIAs are coming up, so I’ll have a lot of assignments to do. That will look productive and shit, but it has the adverse effects on me. I hate studying or anything remotely related to it. Doing things like that gets me stressed which will.make me relapse. But I’ll try my best to not peek as that will be the challenge coz I’ll be looking for ways to get dopamine.
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I understand, I also don’t like studying very much though, but I have to for now. Just don’t miss your workout, meditate more oftenly and you will not feel much pressure from studying.
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Bro I don’t consider worthy of advising anyone myself, but I say what I feel should help. It’s alright bro, your advice is always appreciated. You are here always reading my stuff and supporting and giving your opinion! I can’t thank you enough bro!
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bro it’s just that you were one of the first persons to reply on my diary. Also I like your posts, I’ll also be asking for workout advice from you a few days later .
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