I’m gonna keep this one short. I think I had a wet dream last night, or a nightfall…I don’t really know the difference between the two. If anyone knows the difference, do lemme know. Anyway, when I woke up there was no evidence of it. I don’t remember if I actually had a dream of the sexual nature. The only dream I had was about my pet fish dying and to my surprise it did:sob:. But I dreamt about my blue fish dieing bit it was the red one that died. Anyway, I slept in today, woke up late. I did it on purpose, I real did need a rest day. Saturday and Sunday were supposed to be my rest days but they turned out to be way more active than the rest of the week so I decided to just rest completely today. That’s exactly what I did. I chilled all day. I didn’t play. I didn’t workout either. After classes I just watched yu yu hakusho. Then me and my friends had an epic and the most productive discussion on the upcoming movie Kong Vs Godzilla . Anyway, since we were on the topic, I decided to catch up with the story so far. So I watched Kong skull island and I watched like 20 minutes of Godzilla 2. I’m gonna watch attack on Titan now, episode 5&6 are already out. So I’m gonna watch that. And I also got a haircut yesterday so I look much better than I usually do. I decided to keep the front long and curly and faded the sides and back. I now have a curly fringe as my hairstyle. I forgot to mention that in my diary yesterday. Yep that’s it. So much for keeping it short lol.
Honestly I was surprised to see so much activity in my diary today. Usually only 2 or 3 people actually read my diary entries and I kinda know the reason why. Its not really inspirational or fun to read as it just what I do everyday. But when I saw people actually discussing things here I was taken a back. It felt good to see people sharing their thoughts here. It’s all super informative and really helpful. I thank y’all for that! @debellator@Dean_Ambrose@The_integrous_one@Forerunner
I also had that kind of thing in my dream once about 2-3 days back, I thought I had nightfall but no evidence in the morning , also in one or two of my dream I refrained from ejaculating Lol , I don’t know what people call that.
It was Republic Day so I didn’t have classes. I tried to wake up early but I didn’t. But I did my morning workout anyway, I did more than I usually do.
Muscle groups hit:
Chest X2
Upper back X2
Middle back X2
Lower back X2
Bisceps X2
Quads and hamstrings X2
By the time I got over with my workout, it was noon. So technically I had a brunch then. After that me and my dad went to a KIA and a TATA showroom to look for cars. After returning they went to my aunt’s house and I was left home alone. I tried my best to sleep but I couldn’t. Soon after, I was called to play badminton with the neighbors and I went to the nearby indoor court. I played for almost 45 mins. Then I returned and went to church. We had a meeting and a councilling session for the youth members followed by biryani . It was fun. Food wise, I’m not really happy about what I ate today, I drank a glass of sprite, which I never do. I gave up soda a long time ago and drinking even one glass made me feel weird. I ate chocolates and unniappam as well. All of which are not good for my health. I need to be more careful about what I eat. That’s about it. Peace
Yes brothers I agree with what @debellator had said. We are the people who started out on high speed internet pornography and a lot solid, physical change is needed to rewire our brain and that won’t be easy as said in the book easypeasy.
Trust me, I have read and studied that book from line to line and I implemented it in my life as well. But ‘do the hard shit’ mentality is also required to get out of this addiction. Especially in the beginning, you’ll get urges on some days. There maybe days you’ll feel lonely, bored, stressed and want to escape life but the crutch that you always leaned on is not there and it normally will put you into suffering mode. Our Brian and body works that way.
But the easypeasy gets its importance as we go further into this journey. As we reach 90+, 100+ days etc we need to remember the concepts of that book to not go back into the addiction. There are thousands of people who beat this addiction once and will go back to square one. To avoid that we can use easypeasy.
To stop this addiction once and for all easypeasy will be very helpful.
But in the initial stages we need a David Goggins kind of attitude to get our shit together
This is what I’ve learned from experience; it depends
Btw, bro @GOVIND-19 I loved the way you write this diary man. Your diary is fun to read. Keep going; you are killing it dude
I don’t remember when I woke up but it was definitely not early. Anyway I had my classes and I started working out during my classes.
Muscle groups hit:
Shoulders and traps X2
Triceps and forearms X2
Hips, glutes and calves X2
By the time I was done with my workout it was 12 in the noon. So now I had to have brunch. I doubled down on what I ate and had a heavy brunch. I’m going to list it down here for context on what happened next. I ate 8 chappatis, 4 boiled eggs in the egg curry, I bowl of mung beans curry. That’s a monstrous amount of food. And I was full. Atleast I thought I was.
But then, I forgot I had to go attend a function that my friend invited me for. It’s been 41 days since my friends father died and they had arranged a service after a mass at church. I promised him I would be there…but me being a dumbass forgot about the mass and I only remembered by the time my other friend called me to ask if I went. The mass was already over and only the lunch service was left. I went anyway just to go show my face atleast because I promised him and I decided not to eat the lunch they were offering. When I got there, my friends asked me to eat a little for formalities. I thought I can eat one plate of chicken biryani and kebabs and scoot. Because I know I can do it if I force myself. But as soon as I was done with plate one, my friend strolled in and dumped almost 2 plates worth of biryani in my plate and left. I was beyond full at this point and I had no idea how long I could force myself. I don’t like wasting food so I decided to push my limits. I barely finished the food and kebabs they gave me for round two. I washed all of it down desperately with water and drank the payasam that they gave. The food was at my throat and I feared if like. But I didn’t. I was low-key singing higher in the background while I was eating. Remember, that i ate all if this in a span of an hour.
By the time I got home, I knew I won’t be able to move anymore and I’d pass out soon after and I did. I woke up at 5 or something and my friends were up for a game of badminton. We played from 7-8:30pm and I came back. It was a fun game and I played continuously for that 1.5 hours. Honestly I don’t know how I managed to play with a full stomach. I came back and I’m gonna skip dinner. I’m pretty sure I ate a days worth of food in that one hour.
Just to give you all a picture, I’ll send a screenshot of my food log in healthify me. Just see how much calories I ate at one go…now was it healthy? Absofuckinglutely not!!! But I’m kinda proud of my capacity now. I’m gonna be on a detoxification diet for a couple of days now. That’s about it!
Yo 3500 calories in one meal is no joke! That’s a whole days worth of food, for me at least. Now y’all be thinking I’m some fat fuck! No I’m not. I just have a huge capacity!
Man, You know what I have never ever consumed that much amount of calories in my life in a day !
Bro, 8 chappatis you are a beast or what, 4 boiled eggs too, I don’t believe you are a human, You are a Titan. How the hell does this amount of food is stored in your body.
How can you eat alot in a row ! How ??
That’s where I lack ! I waste food, rather than finishing eat.
From Tomorrow you are gonna see, I will push my limits.
And Eat atleast 2000 Calories.
You are Inspiration for me brother !
Keep Going Brother, I hope your injuries have been recovered.
Everything is going just as you planned
Bro @rewire_user I’ve never see anyone get so excited over what I ate:joy:. But yeah, sometimes I wonder how the hell can I eat so much and where does it all go? But it is what it is and I am what I am, so might as well make the most out of it!.
Don’t waste food bro, I feel like that’s an injustice we do towards all the people in the world who die of starvation! Finish what you take, or don’t take it in the first place. That’s my policy!
You my boi has to eat a lot. 2000 calories a day is a good start for you! Keep going and work hard, eat a lot. And yea, push your limits, while eating and working out!.
You can do it bro! Nothing is stopping you! Eating is one of the easiest things to do!. If eating 2000 calories seems like a huge task and if you get discouraged quick, try eating a bit more than you usually do. For example, if you eat one plate of rice a meal, then next time eat half plate more, or one fourth plate, or even a spoon more than usual! Same goes with everything else, a little more than yesterday. You’ll slowly develop the habit of eating more. And once your exams are all done and you are free, workout more than usual, it will increase your appetite! All the best bro! Focus on your studies for now!
I woke up around 8:30ish in the morning. Nowadays this is how morning goes. I log into my online classes and start working out simultaneously. Yea I workout while listening to class. It’s fun. My morning session was…
Muscle groups hit:
Chest X2
Bisceps X2
Quads and hamstrings X2
I had a brunch today as well. You know what I’ll tell yall this. After yesterday’s humongous meal, I fasted for 24 hours before my next meal. That is it’s been more than 24 hours since my last meal. Kind of an extreme intermittent fasting. I’m following intermittent fasting nowadays. its easier to keep track of calories and remain satiated at the same time. So coming back to my brunch today, again 8 chappatis with tomato curry. No eggs this time. After classes i watched a but if yu yu hakusho and fell asleep soon after. Then in the evening I went to play badminton with my friends! It was just me and another guy today, so we played solo for a solid hour. Solos are the most energy consuming. Very good cardio. Oh and also before I fell asleep in the afternoon, I had urges. Nothing serious but I don’t get many. I just took a deep breath in and it went away.
While coming back home from the court, I had this epiphany… life is good! I’m happy! The very idea of PMOing felt meaningless to me! I’m working on myself, my health hasn’t been better! I’m looking my best right now. No worries at all. Spending a lot of time with friends, laughing! I’m happy, genuinely happy! What more could I ask for? I hope I can keep this going forever! Signing off!
It felt good to read that brother, this is why we all are on this journey so that we can enjoy life to the fullest. Keep moving forward. Though that working out along with class bit makes me laugh .
Thanks for that man! Appreciate it! Working out while listening to class is not as difficult as you think! While working out your mind stays sharp. Even if you are not fully focused on what is being said, your brain picks it up anyway. Plus it saves me a lot of time
Bro, desperate times call for desperate measures. See there’s a reason why I don’t show up in the miracle morning thread anymore… while I was getting up at 5:30, I could finish my workouts and attend classes. But for some reason I couldn’t fall asleep before 12. My family usually sleeps at 11:30. There’s a fixed schedule for my family. So I fall asleep around 12. But then I had to wake up at 5:30 and do everything. I had time, but I was severely sleep deprived. For the amount of physical work I do, I need at least 8 hours if sleep, which I was not getting. My eyes were heavy all the time. I I just thought, I’ll sleep all I need and improvise with my time. That’s exactly what I did:wink:… Plus I don’t have to take notes or solve problems like y’all in class. Just listen and understand. That’s all that’s required
Oh then it’s good if you don’t have to take notes , I thought you were just logging in the class for attendance, because back in college I played games on my mobile in class many times Lol . Also don’t sacrifice sleep brother, yeah 8 hours is required to stay sharp whole day.
I woke up at 8 today, logged into class and started working out! I went all out on my morning session!
Muscle groups hit:
Shoulders X2
Triceps X2
Upper back X2
Middle back X2
Hips and glutes X2
All of them were isolation exercises and it burned! I’m continuing my intermittent fasting. I ate my first meal at 1 pm today. That’s 15 hours of fasting. I ate a heavy brunch, watched some episodes of yu yu hakusho.
And now for some serious shit. As I said before, 30 days scare me as flatline hits and urged start to increase slowly. I’ll share something that happened with me today. While I was using my laptop for an assignment today, a telegram linked popped up saying leaked video of hit actress and shit. I immediately tried to press the X button to close the notification. But accidentally opened the channel. I didn’t watch anything but did get glance at some of the thumbnails. I don’t know if that’s considered as peeking. I immediately closed the channel and exited it. It was a movie channel btw and not some porn channel. Shit like this pops up sometime. But the images I saw lasted for sometime and I had urges. Nothing major but it lasted longer than I expected. This scared me. I fell asleep soon after and got up and went to church. Helped with decorations as the church feast is this Sunday. After the mass, chilled a bit and came back home. I’m about to got to bed but as I said, the images are still stuck in my head. I’ll try my best to fall asleep fast and forget that shit ASAP as possible
. It was fun. Food wise, I’m not really happy about what I ate today, I drank a glass of sprite, which I never do. I gave up soda a long time ago and drinking even one glass made me feel weird. I ate chocolates and unniappam as well. All of which are not good for my health. I need to be more careful about what I eat. That’s about it. Peace
