I was a normal human being.
I was intelligent too. I was in A section in my class when i was in school.
During my first year of masturbation, our friend circle used to count their days of nofap. Nobody knows about the term nofap back then. I remember i never crossed 1 month mark when i was 14 yrs old. After that class my friends got in other sections and we no longer count our days. I used to say to God back then that it is the last time that i am going to fap but i kept on failing. God punished me. Or it was i who was punishing myself. But i was getting hurt as days were passing.
When i started doing masturbation every year my marks started to reduce. I developed social anxiety and fear within first 2 years of masturbation. I got failed in various subjects in 3rd year of masturbation.
Next was the turn of Sleepless nights and depression.
Taken to pyshatrist and started taking drugs prescribed by doctor like clonazapem and many more to reduce my fear and anxiety. Also to help me sleep. Searched on internet about my problem but internet and doctors said masturbation & porn is normal and should be done regularly. I believed them.
Later in my life started smoking and drinking but there was no way to end my miseries.
I dropped my College because of my severe condition. I developed Cervical dystonia and couldnt even walk straight. My body had given up. I was receiving botox injections in my neck 3 or 4 times every year. Plus i was taking medications for depression. Many times i was even hospitilised for panic attacks. I was going to die but somehow i discovered about nofap. I am living nofap lifestyle for 1 and half years. I have relapsed many times but i am stubborn to quit for good.
Nofap Hard Mode saved My Life
Cervical Dystonia Cured
1 yr has passed since last botox injection.
I am slowly slowly becoming a Normal person as i was.
Had successfuly quited meds for 5 months but fallen again in trap due to relapses. Trying again now.
Social Anxiety and Fear Gone.
Erectile Dysfunction cured.