Hi im Raven and this is my first time posting and participating here!
For the past decade ever since I’ve hit puberty, I’ve always been doing the deed up to the point that i think it’s chronic. Every day of my life is starting to get driven by this short lived event just for a small dose of feel good chemicals in my brain.
This worsened for the past few years because of me spiralling down into depression. In a sense it became my unhealthy coping mechanism and outlet. It became a daily habit for me to do once after i wake up, sometimes during the afternoon and always before i sleep and this eventually leads to me getting more mentally and emotionally drained once PNC hits me. There were even times that i wake up feeling dreadfully tired which also pretty much affects my mood for the whole day. It also gives me a big feeling of guilt and shame towards myself and it makes me feel really gross and dirty
This year, im planning to change that. Im planning to abstain from doing the deed and finally try to break out of my habit. I know for a fact that i might slip up at times and give in but I aim to drastically reduce the times i do the deed.This will be my Resolution for this year! I installed the rewire companion app on my phone to monitor my progress and so far im enjoying the features.
My goal would be to slowly wean it out my system by reducing the times i do it in a day, or hopefully reduce the times i do it in a week, then proceed to abstain for months. As of this tim of writing this, i am currently 1 day and 23 hours clean, so im almost at 2 days worth of abstinence now and I’ll do everything in my power to keep abstaining for as long as i can.
Here’s to a better and cleaner 2021!
Here’s to a brighter 2021! Have a nice day everyone