It’s called POCD, it’s an ocd when you’re worried that you are uhhh what should i called it, child lover. It’s kinda tormenting me. Please tell me if you ever experience it.
I assume that is a very serious symptom of excessive masturbation to porn and something you should worry.
Now that you mention “child lover”, I remember I kinda had a similar situation in my teens in 2014 where I would meet a cute little girl in the middle of a street and would think that this girl one day, once she realises she would have a hot body, she is going to whore herself with anonymous sex. That is when I knew I crossed a line and stopped thinking about it. But I never knew excessive masturbation got me thinking like that.
Another time, in summer 2017, I can remember the city coucil brought inn city bicycles for the public to try. Anyway, I contact my buddy and we try those bicycles. We ride in through a big park with each our bicycles from point A to B. When we reached B, I noticed three 2 year old naked girls, jumping and dansing on grass, throwing water at each other and I had a long second of glance, starring at them. Fascinating the nudity without realising that its wrong. Then I throw a glance at a group of men near them, which are their fathers and one of them nodded “NO” as if there was something very wrong with me. Thats when it hit me again that excessive masturbation to porn led me to this.
In summary your POCD is the symptom of excessive masturbation to porn.
I guess you right. This thing happens when i’m almost at my 2 weeks streak. It’s kinda weird. Now i know how bad porn can be. Thank you dude
I have been attracted to trans people
It will take time to heal
I’d say a year or so
But it can be healed
I’m now not really as fascinated with porn I used to be. Although it still randomly pops up. I think I’m healing and it’s been like 6 months of trying to keep self in control. So yes. It will take time.
I’m sure there must be a lot of people here with weird fantasies. So don’t be hard on yourself.
Some people say it’s desensitization. It’s like a side effect of no fapping, i think. Just like when you’re stop smoking, there’s a side effect along the way.
Hey bro, I didn’t think that I’d ever tell about it to anybody but I was deeply addicted to porn till 2018, and after my entry in the incel community, I was exposed to that side of internet which I was never aware of. Its shameful to share, but I have watched and even fapped to different animals having sex with human females. Its called beastiality or zoophillia. Another shameful thing that I did, and which is seriously the most embarrassing act of my life is watching gore photos and videos of one human killing another. I was seriously going mad and psychotic, as I used to derive pleasure while seeing others being killed and violated. However, I gained my consciousness in few months and then I stopped watching all of these sinful acts altogether from that very day. A few days later, I even cut off my contacts with all the toxic members of incel community. Few months later, I began practicing nofap and 2 months later, I was on a 48 day streak, most probably having cured myself completely of a serious mental illness and doing much better in studies.
So, bro, you can heal yourself. You’re nowhere near as crazy as I was/am. When even I can cure myself then why can’t you? You’ll definitely overcome it. It’s all in your head. And you are its master. It’ll take time but you’ll get there.
“Body can only be strengthened to a certain degree, but its your mind which makes you impervious to defeat. Just like knuckles on your hands, mind can be made callous as hell”. - Cainn Burgess (Scott Adkins) in Avengement (2019)
Thank you bro. I will not disappoint you
I was attracted to the same sex for about 6-12 months at the age of 26 for the first time. During this time…i stayed in relationship with 10-12 men. I contracted stds too. I turned paedophile. I turned bestialic.I turned incest. I think now…all these were due to a very heavy porn consumption.
You are right. It’s due to heavy porn usage when normal doesn’t excite a person. Abstaining from PMO is a guaranteed solution to this.
So are things better now?
It got better immediately after i got STDs. I came to my senses right then and there.
That period of my life was horrible. I dumped my gf and went to fulfill same sex fantasy. What a pity!
Ohh man you have had serious illness. Compared to many folks here who were deeply addicted to porn and weird fantasy,I think I’m no less than them. U know ,I was addicted to fapping watching real women secretly,from a peephole or window of washroom. It felt so good at that time,I didn’t know how much hellish was that…
Joining this community has really helped a lot. I’m on 26 days streak and I am quite happy to say that I didn’t peek to any woman till now. It’s so disgusting
There’s a hidden secret with me as well. When I was in my school days,I was hooked to shitty sex stories,invest stories,I’m so shameful to admit that at that time I was living in a different dimension,I was thinking about sex with my own relatives
This is the gift of porn addiction…turning intelligent human being into the lowest level. I can feel this problem. I do not know how many of my younger brother and sister will fall into this hellish trap. God…please rescue them.
Yes it happened for about 6 months, sadly I was thinking about almost all female members of my family,my maternal uncle’s wife was at the top. I had jerked off to her many times,I was so sexually addicted to her. May be due to the reason when I was small,she used to rub her foot on my foot,and also brushes up my hairs…
Congratulations for 26 days. Time passes so fast.
@Roads_to_purity @Dvija @PrDr @Nep1234id @JohnDoe3217 and other companions After reading all of the members experience, I can relate and understand how hard life is going for others. we all are here struggling with this PMO. One thing for sure, we are no different from each other and shameful things we have done knowingly or sometimes unknowingly. Let’s pledge and commit to ourselves today that we will show the world we can be gentleman. Life has given a second chance by creating a wonderful community where anonymously we can share and support each other. So whoever listening me now, rest of the life pledge not to go back. Let’s learn from our mistakes and move forward with a good lesson.
Iam a 37 days old gentleman😁 Jokes apart
I’ve quit pmo 37 days ago
Now nofap for life
Thank you. You may not know,like me there are many people to whom you’re inspiring. So Stay strong and keep moving.
You are not your thoughts.
Just don’t feed those thoughts too much. Let it come, observe and let it go naturally. Even if it keeps coming back again and again. DO NOT FEED IT. It could make you think in directions you do not want to go.
I’ve never experienced it myself but I see that a lot of disorders like being attracted to the same sex or enjoying really violent porn are caused by a strong addiction so I think it’s PMO’s fault.
Don’t become like him
It is the very reason why I’m doing nofap, I’m so scared as I’m turning into a potential paedophile, I’m only 17 years old, but I don’t want to be one of them. Excessive porn consumption has led me to the point that I’m searching for low-aged porn and viewing them. It was terrible. Porn really does fucked up our minds. I have no intention in going back to watching porn ever again. I am with you in this brother, together we will recover and turn ourselves a better man.