It’s called POCD, it’s an ocd when you’re worried that you are uhhh what should i called it, child lover. It’s kinda tormenting me. Please tell me if you ever experience it.
I assume that is a very serious symptom of excessive masturbation to porn and something you should worry.
Now that you mention “child lover”, I remember I kinda had a similar situation in my teens in 2014 where I would meet a cute little girl in the middle of a street and would think that this girl one day, once she realises she would have a hot body, she is going to whore herself with anonymous sex. That is when I knew I crossed a line and stopped thinking about it. But I never knew excessive masturbation got me thinking like that.
Another time, in summer 2017, I can remember the city coucil brought inn city bicycles for the public to try. Anyway, I contact my buddy and we try those bicycles. We ride in through a big park with each our bicycles from point A to B. When we reached B, I noticed three 2 year old naked girls, jumping and dansing on grass, throwing water at each other and I had a long second of glance, starring at them. Fascinating the nudity without realising that its wrong. Then I throw a glance at a group of men near them, which are their fathers and one of them nodded “NO” as if there was something very wrong with me. Thats when it hit me again that excessive masturbation to porn led me to this.
In summary your POCD is the symptom of excessive masturbation to porn.
I guess you right. This thing happens when i’m almost at my 2 weeks streak. It’s kinda weird. Now i know how bad porn can be. Thank you dude
I have been attracted to trans people
It will take time to heal
I’d say a year or so
But it can be healed
I’m now not really as fascinated with porn I used to be. Although it still randomly pops up. I think I’m healing and it’s been like 6 months of trying to keep self in control. So yes. It will take time.
I’m sure there must be a lot of people here with weird fantasies. So don’t be hard on yourself.
Some people say it’s desensitization. It’s like a side effect of no fapping, i think. Just like when you’re stop smoking, there’s a side effect along the way.
Hey bro, I didn’t think that I’d ever tell about it to anybody but I was deeply addicted to porn till 2018, and after my entry in the incel community, I was exposed to that side of internet which I was never aware of. Its shameful to share, but I have watched and even fapped to different animals having sex with human females. Its called beastiality or zoophillia. Another shameful thing that I did, and which is seriously the most embarrassing act of my life is watching gore photos and videos of one human killing another. I was seriously going mad and psychotic, as I used to derive pleasure while seeing others being killed and violated. However, I gained my consciousness in few months and then I stopped watching all of these sinful acts altogether from that very day. A few days later, I even cut off my contacts with all the toxic members of incel community. Few months later, I began practicing nofap and 2 months later, I was on a 48 day streak, most probably having cured myself completely of a serious mental illness and doing much better in studies.
So, bro, you can heal yourself. You’re nowhere near as crazy as I was/am. When even I can cure myself then why can’t you? You’ll definitely overcome it. It’s all in your head. And you are its master. It’ll take time but you’ll get there.
“Body can only be strengthened to a certain degree, but its your mind which makes you impervious to defeat. Just like knuckles on your hands, mind can be made callous as hell”. - Cainn Burgess (Scott Adkins) in Avengement (2019)
Thank you bro. I will not disappoint you