I want to give myself another shot.
I was really disappointed with myself and I have been fapping like crazy all this while !
But I want to give myself another shot. Because I have done it in the past. I have gone 145 days full NoFap. I have done multiple 60-90 day streaks, several 30 day streaks, several 14 day streaks. I know this journey has not been perfect. And right now I am probably at my lowest. Corona fucked me real hard. In the ass. Literally, before corona I was doing great with social skills, workout and everything in place. Then I fucked up. If anything, this just shows that I am WEAK. I need to toughen up. I need to clean my mind. Fully. I need a full detox. For me YouTube addiction got really bad during these corona times.
Now corona is almost over. Things are going back to normal. I know I am late already. But I want to heal myself now.
I am gonna take a 90 day challenge of not using any social media at all. This will be hard. I have deleted my Facebook and Instagram accounts already. But for me the major problem is YouTube and searching nude women on Google or on pornsites.
I will just try to limit my work. One of the reasons was that I was expecting too much work from myself and that is not healthy. These motivation videos also fucked me up. This hustle mindset and shit got toxic.
But I do need to work hard and get back on track. But now I want to focus on things that I love to do rather than grinding for the sake of it.
I need to clean my mind off of women and sexual thoughts. And social media. These fucking influencers fucked me up.
Social media has been toxic for me and I don’t need it anymore.
I will replace it with spiritual talks on an Android app because I would still need the dope. And this is a healthy way.
90 DAY PURIFICATION CHALLENGE :
No Social Media
No PMO OR Lust towards women
No casual browsing
Use computer only for work and not for entertainment
I won’t keep this challenge strict. So if I fail here and there. It’s fine. But I will do it for 90 days and report my progress after this.
As I said I am using this app for long term accountability. Daily posting on it is rather destructive to me.