I’m finally starting my classes, it’s been three months here (shortage of instructors.) I’m feeling nervous, I know a lot of people who got dropped from the school and they say it’s hard. I feel the urge to dull my anxiety with PMO but I know it’ll make me feel worse. I’m going to hopefully call my gf tonight and I’m sure that’ll help me figure out my feelings a bit more.
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Calling my gf did make me feel way better, but I made her angry because I unknowingly followed an inappropriate Instagram account. I had looked at the pictures and videos, I didn’t realize I followed. She is reasonably upset and we’re going to talk on Saturday, after my first test.
I’ve begun school to become an air traffic controller, it’s one of the hardest schools I could have chosen, and it has already got me studying hard. The classes are fast-paced, and there is so much information it’s crazy how we remember it at all. I’m trying to do good on this first test and make a good self-impression for how this will go.
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It’s good that calling your girlfriend helped you feel better. It’s important to talk things out. Just make sure to explain the situation calmly when you talk to her on Saturday. Mistakes happen, and communication is key.
Starting a challenging course like air traffic controller training is impressive! Studying hard is crucial, especially in fast-paced classes. Focus on understanding the key concepts, and take it one step at a time. Good luck on your first test! 
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Been doing good in school, feels strange to get into actually studying and taking tests like I used to. Besides studying, my hobbies have all taken a backseat. I should get back into exercising, and meditation to help with stress. But overall doing good mentally, keeping up and understanding MOST of it.
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Running more, which feels great. Eating healthier, becoming better friends with my classmates. I haven’t meditated in a long time, I feel disconnected from Buddhism and my religious beliefs.
I’ve been speaking of others too much, complaining, and showing overconfidence. PMOing daily, eating indulgently and not giving my gf the love she deserves. I recognize all these things, and I will strive to improve.
Tomorrow is a new day.
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Bruh your content is Awesome…
I think ur Buddhist. So can u tell how to do meditation properly. What the think we must aware at that moment… I hope u will reply to this…
I wish u good no fap journey…
Stay Strong Brother 
I’ve got my next test on Monday, I must use this weekend properly in order to pass it. Spent tonight working out with friends and decompressing. I’m hoping to do studying outside, in open air and quiet breeze. Tonight will be a night of plentiful sleep. My gf sent me naughty videos and pictures out of nowhere, I appreciated them and she understands the workload of what I’m going through. I hope to also use this weekend to address some personal and financial things I’ve been putting off.
Time management is becoming more and more crucial.
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Finally learned how to shine my boots properly, that made my day. I am grateful for the teacher who gave me some tips on how to make them look better.
Tomorrow is another test, it is going to be a long day.
My body is becoming softer and weaker from inactivity and stress, I need to prioritize exercise more, and do active breaks in between studying. My mind uses all of its focus on studies, and I lack willpower/energy to resist temptations of snacking, PMO, etc.
I’m going to get rid of my unhealthy snacks, and stop eating so many refined carbohydrates (chips, crackers, candies). I’m also going to shine my dress shoes, organize my desk, and journal. So far, I am eating significantly healthier, but most likely lacking on protein intake.
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Day 0- Instagram nonsense
Finally experienced some deep and focused work this evening.
Did a wonderful group sprint workout this morning, also took an exam and got a 97 on it, now we’re learning about even more complex subjects but I enjoy the challenge.
Drank lots of water, ate healthy, feeling great.
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Still going strong in school, we’ve now begun simulation runs of air traffic control, simulating how we would work in the tower. The workload has increased, the mornings have gotten earlier and the nights have gotten later. But the weekend is almost here.
My gf isn’t doing very well mental/emotionally, and our distance and my lack of communication is making it worse. I keep trying to have her understand that this school requires the majority of my attention unfortunately, she hasn’t yet accepted that fully. I still try to text her daily and call her at least once a week.
I should be getting my orders soon and learning where I’ll be stationed, I’m excited for that.
Mentally, I’m just trying to not stress out too much and make sure I’m managing my time properly.
This was my first day without PMO in weeks, it gave me such a confidence boost and I felt like I had so much time.
All love to everybody✌🏻
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Hopefully the situation gets better soon.
Keep going brother, life’s much better when we’re free.
Life is going well, school is going well. I’m feeling a huge drive to improve myself, and I feel quitting p will be a big part of it. I’ve been feeling truly addicted these last few months, I do it nearly every day without fail, always finding some way.
I want to be better.
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You can be better, brother.
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Everything starts with a desire, including every good thing… and sounds like you’ve got plenty of it. Can’t wait to hear that you’ve pulled the trigger on it, turn the page, make a change.
Tomorrow is the first day of Spring which is historically often viewed as the first day of the year, the beginning of a new year cycle, a time for growth and rebirth.
I challenge you to wake up and take a few big steps our brother. You seem to be ready.
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Another setback. I stopped trying, citing the stress of school as a temporary excuse to continue PMOing. But it’s no temporary excuse, I will always find some made-up reason to keep doing it. I’m going to keep pushing and trying to be consistent. Today I just hope to make it until tomorrow morning.
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How are you doing Derek?
I’ve fallen again, but I’ve been excelling mentally and physically. Feeling much better about myself, my p use at this point is nearly all boredom. I’m finding ways to keep myself busy, hanging out with my roommates much more.
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Good to hear that you’re feeling better mentally.
Boredom is a great challenge on this journey of self-improvement and overcoming addiction. It has been commonly mentioned as a reason for many relapses.
When we are bored frequently, it is the mind’s way of telling us that it is frustrated with our current circumstances and it wants an outlet to express its creativity. We don’t feel bored when developing ourselves and working towards goals and projects that we are passionate about.
Boredom is a reminder that we are capable of accomplishing more in our lives.
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Back again. A lot of stuff has happened the last year or so but long story short, I’m back to my old habits of coping. I’m committed to changing once again.
I want to reconnect with my spirituality, my hobbies, who I really am.
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It’s ok to fall as long as you’ll truly learn from it. What matters is that you’re here brother and you’re ready to fight once again stronger. All the best brother I know you’ve got this 
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