For one thing, you have already beaten your highest streak. That is not a small achievement at all. Being this negative about your progress makes it easier to make the decision to give it all up and go back to zero.
View your productivity like going to the gym. Is it possible for you to be productive for 16 hours a day? Absolutely. But not right now. No one would be crazy enough to try to lift 150kg on their first day in the gym. They start off with 20kg and work their way up. That’s what you’re trying to do.
Don’t look at what other people are doing, focus on yourself and your capacity right now. Success builds on top of itself. If you’re struggling to read for 4 hours, start with reading for 30 minutes. Make a habit of that for a few days, then increase it to 60 minutes, then 90 minutes etc. Now you have progress to post and achievements you can be proud of rather than wasted days and feelings of frustration.
No bro I relapsed today also, I am ashamed to say that:pensive:. But dont think the words you said were a waste. I will do productive things today you might as well check when I write at the end of the day
Ah, I’m sorry to hear that. I was worried about that exact thing happening - the negativity leading you to decide to go back to zero.
One thing that is really helping me is a list of all the reasons why I want to be free from addiction and all the good things that happen to me when I’m free. I read it every morning to remind myself of why I’m on this journey. Forgetting why leaves us only seeing pleasure in ■■■■ and masturbation instead of remembering the pain.
EACH HABIT I DO IS A VOTE FOR THE PERSON I WANT TO BE
I read this superb post today by a fellow user. I will always keep this in mind whenever I do any habit. And as said by @Forerunner I will write the reasons why I want to be free from this. As for today, I was out for the most part for some work. Atleast did not waste time on youtube and games today! And now very tired so Im going to sleep.
EACH HABIT I DO IS A VOTE FOR THE PERSON I WANT TO BE
Day wasted. Got a lot of urges and this time I did not give up! I always try to find excuses like “why this urge is coming? I dont understand it should be like I will not get any urge at all.” I try to escape pain But not anymore…i know this pain will fuel my growth, it will make me better. I must face this pain…the enemy is much more powerful than I am but I will not give up.
Oh yeah I forgot to update the book part. I read books and I was looking for some work related to my studies online. Other times I was just watching youtube but I mostly watched videoes about my diet and how to improve it and all.
Those are productive things bro, you should list them. It looked like you spent the day aimlessly scrolling or watching TV series or something. You’re doing better than your diary displays.
My advice, take it or leave it, is to only list the accomplishments you made for the day. Don’t put it down if you didn’t achieve it. Red failures are demotivating and don’t encourage growth. Like I told you before, success builds on each other. If you accomplished 2 things, you’ll want to add 3 tomorrow and 4 the next day, but if you feel like you failed most of the day anyway there is less motivation to improve.
Nope I am grateful I dont have the habit of aimlessly scrolling and I dont watch webseries as well. Ok from now on here I will only list the productive things which I do and also will write some of my realisations. And the number of days which I am writing was actually kind of pointless now that you are asking and so from now on I will give the date to keep a record which will be helpful when I will scroll through the posts to see what I did each day
From a few days I have been relapsing a lot. I have been allowing my mind to think of obscene things. This is the thing which affects the most…what you think with your mind will reflect in your actions. So I have set a goal for 10 days. After completion I will set another goal.
DAY 1:
DAY 2:Relapsed
NEW START
IF I CANNOT MAKE IT TO ATLEAST DAY 5 I WILL CHANGE MY USERNAME TO LOSER009.
Yeah man I know …I had challenged myself but failed and so acc to the conditions I changed but its for 5 days only. I also saw your diary you are doing great. Stay strong
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the reasons why I want to be free from this. As for today, I was out for the most part for some work. Atleast did not waste time on youtube and games today! And now very tired so Im going to sleep.
