Confession of a chronic masturbator, Read and learn

Hey there!

I am a male, 20 years old and here is my experience of what effect does masturbation has on one’s brain (“mind” - more specifically) and health.

I was 13 years. old when I started watching porn and started masturbating at the age of 15. When I first masturbated, it was the most amazing feeling of the world which can’t be explained and most probably no one actually can. Slowly this became a habit and eventually the hardest thing to give up. I would masturbate fantasizing about girls in my high school, teachers and some of the girls who were somehow related to my life. It really feels great when you are in your teenage years and when you have just started masturbating but it affects you in the long run.

There were times when I used to masturbate a number of times in a day and then ended up feeling depressed at the end of the day.

Regular masturbation over a stretch sometimes led to depression for weeks.

My confidence level was lowered and I could not confront/face any person immediately.

Staying disconnected from society under depression led to anger issues and frustration.

There were days when masturbation made me so weak that at the end of the day I could barely stand up on my feet and used to sleep for straight 14–16 hrs.; Even then I used to feel weak and lack confidence.

Lack in concentration, learning new concepts, solving problems which led to a decline in my grades

Then there came a day when I joined college and finally left masturbation. I felt happy and full of confidence, ready to face any problem in my life, away from depression, away from anger and all the side effects that were caused due to masturbation. Then a girl comes into my life whom I started liking and proposed, to which she said that she just considered me as a friend and nothing more than that. Heart broken, and feeling low there came an idea in my mind,”I SHOULD MASTURBATE ONCE” just to deflect my mind from that girl and the heart break. After 8 months I masturbated once again which was the beginning of another phase of destruction and which is going on till now. From then the changes which took place were:

I started feeling low again due to regular masturbation

Creation of a social gap started taking place

Loneliness haunted me

Frequent emotional imbalances

Weak mind and thoughts

Weigh the body with a loss in stamina and energy

Distraction from physical maintenance of body

Fantasizing my nearest female friends while masturbating which made me feel more guilty every single time

Distraction from studies

Lack of focus in other activities

Now after so much struggle in life which is still continuing, masturbation seems the toughest thing to give up. And with time it has become an addiction.

I start getting erection even when I see a charming girl

When a girl shakes hands with me I get an erection

And I have to suffer a lot of shame due to this

Taking it on a life changing note I do not want someone else to suffer just like me. I can bet on this that however small these problems may seem, they are going to trouble you in the long run. There are various ways to stop masturbation which can be searched on google and many videos are available on youtube. Go there and get rid of this habit as soon as you can because even other problems such as erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation are for real which can happen due to regular masturbation. I am still finding ways to give up masturbation.

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Hope so you will beat this addiction this time…
Imagine , if you can beat it once, then why not again…!!!

I want to know., was there any medical issue too with you when you masturbated for a long time frequently…
Like urine drops after peeing or semen drops after passing stool…!!!

If it was so…
Was there any recovery when you left those things for 8 months?

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Please don’t wait till there is a medical issues before you stop masturbation, don’t let yourself to be used as an experiment as to why we should stop masturbation

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