As Christian believer, I want to love the lord and feel like I’m on the same page with him, I want to be energised by him, and walk and live for him.
I’m struggling with this, my sexuality, it keeps hitting me. I’m homosexual, I can’t changed it, the best I can do is not let urges and desires get the best of me. I pray and beg God for some clarity, if I’m not supposed to use it or do anything with it, why do I have it. Most people around me don’t know I’m homosexual, and I don’t feel like they should know. My life feels like I was brought here to watch others live, and serve, but never actually live my self. I don’t want to share my sexuality , cause I don’t want people’s opinions, and anyways I can’t do anything with it. Its something exist to keep bugging me, keep bother and hurting me.
What am i supposed to do.its really depressing, and feels lonely. I won’t act on it cause I won’t risk not walking in God’s light and love. But it’s still there and always will be.
Vou responder em língua portuguesa e você traduz no Google Translate. Não sou homossexual, mas quero lhe dizer umas palavras. A vida vem de Deus. Essa sensação de a vida ser um filme em que nós assistimos os outros viver, enquanto nós mesmos não vivemos, eu tinha muito essa sensação. Era porque eu estava morto, por causa da vida pecaminosa com pornografia e masturbação. O pecado mata nosso organismo espiritual e então passamos a ser meros espectadores da vida, assistimos os outros viver, enquanto nós mesmos não vivemos. Meu conselho para você é: busque o estado de graça. Se você for católico, busque o Sacramento da Confissão e experimentará o renascimento imediato. Busque o estado de graça. Tente não pecar. Humilhe-se para Deus e peça para ele lhe mostrar o seu Amor. Ele é a Vida. Peça humildemente que você quer Viver. Conheça o Deus de Amor e de Vida. E depois de conhecer o Deus de Amor e de Vida, o Espírito Santo (peça-o!), aí você com o auxílio de Deus saberá o que fazer com essa questão da homossexualidade. O Amor de Deus é superior a qualquer coisa neste mundo. Conhecendo o maior, você terá condições de decidir sobre questões menores.
I just want to let you know that I am praying for you. I believe that your desire to repent is righteous. You must continue to resist your inner desires. They are not holy and I understand that you struggle. Hold on to the hand of Christ every day and pray, pray, pray.
Paul says in Corinthians: “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”
I know you probably heard this many times before, but we are all sinners. There is no way to completely rid ourselves of sin, because we are part of a fallen creation. However, we must try to be like Christ, and do our best everyday not to sin. Because when He comes down again only the righteous will inherit the Kingdom of Heaven. The unrighteous will not. That should be your motivator.
I’m don’t have any homosexual tendencies, so I’m sorry if you can’t relate to what I am typing. While I don’t suffer from homosexual tendencies, I still am tempted by immoral and sexual thoughts. You are not alone in suffering with sexual immorality. I just wanted to let you know to not give up. Pray, pray, pray and ask God to rid you of your sinful thoughts. Go outside into the world and find a good Christian group to fellowship with. Focus all your attention to doing the Lord’s work and serving others. The more you focus on that, you’ll leave less room for the devil to tempt you.
Just the fact that you want to repent is amazing. I applaud you. Your desire to change and redeem yourself is already a big step towards internal happiness with the Lord.
I’m sorry to see you struggling this hard with homosexuality, @Rab_J.
Remember God loves you and hates sin. You have your dilemma because of your Christian knowledge.
I too am a Christian. I am straight so I don’t experience your struggles but i have different struggles.
My 1st suggestion is to pray and ask God for guidance. Also know you are fighting a demonic entity that encourages this sin.
Ask God in prayer to separate the demonic entity from you. I can pray for you too if you want.
I hope I can help you. I don’t want you to feel like what I’m saying is against you. On the contrary you are seeking help and making an amazing effort bu reaching out in this way.
As I understand it, homosexuality is a choice and the demon connected to homosexuality puts a blindfold away from the truth. That blindfold makes separation from sin harder.
@wenguin has given great advice. I am more familiar with how the spiritual attacks are operating. Understanding thos should be helpful. I wish you great success.
Homosexuality is forbidden by God because homosexuality is a corruption originated from satan and is a grievous sin separate yourself from it as soon as possible while things are not out of hand and while you have time to avoid the greater evil
people can have unwanted innate tendencies, for example I have an innate attraction towards drugs. Ever since I was a kid I had this pull towards drugs. However I know not to act on it. I’ve had this pull but I also had this understanding that if I go that path it will ruin me completely. The point of nofap is also similar in many ways. People have their “tendencies” to fap and it can get compulsive and you have to take steps against it. I’d suggest you to just keep that in mind and keep working towards your goal. You are bringing in unnecessary burden on yourself worrying about homosexuality. Possibly you are thinking of future and marriage. It wastes your time, nothing else. For now, just choose the “few but important” things in your life and keep working towards them. One of those important things would be freedom from PMO.
Now, coming to this
I once had read (a paper? I’m not exactly sure. It was long back and I’ll try to find it) that every human on this planet has potential to be bisexual. So there is hope for you. And even if it doesn’t work out, then you can prepare yourself to celibate for the rest of your life (I had highlighted this point to you long back when we were conversing).
Although I’d definitely say if a straight guy after watching lots of ■■■■, when it doesn’t satisfy him anymore he turns to something more and can imbibe homosexuality after doing things like that, then why can’t it happen that a gay person on the similar grounds can turn to heterosexual ways?
I’m not asking you to watch lots of ■■■■, I’m simply saying that neural pathways can be changed by this example. So it means there is definitely hope for you. I guess we’ll find some other way to change your neural pathways, but that’s problem of the future.
You have to get rid of homosexuality and arise heterosexuality, so you are doing part 1 of it for now.
Part 2 will be taken care of later, simple as that.
I know this because I’ve had trans attraction for a brief time, and I fought it back. And I was able to see how it can turn into homosexuality in the future.
But that’s not the point here again. The point is to stop worrying about things which are out of your control for now. Just focus on things which you should do (one example would be nofap) and are essential to you.
Take those “few but important” things and give all your heart into them and push forward in your life.
Overcomplicating things won’t work, so just focus.
Just hold your ground over there and don’t quit. I guess you can speak to yourself in this tone (I think the movie is garbage but this scene might help you a bit, especially in visualizing)
Thank You for Sharing. I am not Homossexual, but You have a choice: be Homossexual or You forget your sexual desaires and You Will become submissive to God- follow the Law.
