"Check-in" Daily - diary challenge

From NZ. ecbc59 Looking forward to starting this challenge.

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I didnt checked in as I need time to regroup and think.
Check in after 7 day being clean as per initial aim of this thread.

D7
Week 15, Feb 17,Sunday.
All is good

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Week 15 ~ Sunday

Welcome to this group @reboot123 :india: and @Regardo :australia: :+1:

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Week 15 - Day 5

Nice Sunday. Yesterday I had some urges but manage to stay strong. I don’t know friends If I will never get rid in my mind of all the videos and images I watched on the web. Also thanks to Internet Porn I now “like” weird things!

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@anon59699586 Me too. I’ve often thought this in recent times.
We will and can ‘get over it’ but we must first ‘get over ourselves’
Quanti anni hai, amico mio?
I’m 36

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Do nothing,
Lie on the floor for a few hours.

Solitude.
No TV. No Internet. No problem solving.
No plans.

I want sanctuary. Stillness. Freedom.

Today I realise I’ve lost something I used to have - internal wisdom that comes from the freedom of not seeking stimuli.

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Yes back to simplicity. Back to stillness. I’m learning to reduce stimuly. Less stimuly more freedom. Its the contrary of what our society is teaching us.

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Check in
1st day of Week 16, MONDAY
All Ok

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1st day checkin all good

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Happy Week 16 everyone!

Monday :+1:
Reminded by a companion; I used to X daily, sometimes more :joy:

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Day 59 Monday

Ok yesterday I was returning to home and took zma to get some deep sleep but why I don’t know last time and IST time z m a is not working and giving me lots of urination I can’t sleep until 4:00 a.m. in train finally I reach home at 9:00 a.m. and sleep
Now looking for exercise and productivity

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Checking in - All good.
Week 16 - Feb 18, Monday

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Amico I have a question. What is x y z modes? Thanks.

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1st day check in. All ok

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@anon59699586 - Grazie per avermelo amico.
You are the first to ask :smile:

X, Y and Z modes are for those on Easy, Hard, Monk mode - though not always explicitly, as we don’t always define our modes, but are on a journey.

I added this rule/emoticon :crossed_fingers: later on during this challenge, as a companion had a setback (relapse/reset) but wrote a positive post that he was glad it was only masturbation.
So I created this for positivity.
While being honest and seeking a firm resolve to NoPMO it’s very easy to get negative.

Last week I had a setback, 5 mins on some YouTube and some hot images, so I gave myself :crossed_fingers: because it wasn’t a binge, deep looking, or deep hearted lusting.

I’m not currently defining my particular mode.
I’m just on the road to quite PMO and not looking for a sex in a relationship. We could say that is Monk mode, but curbing ■■■■/erotic images should be something to rejoice in.

PMO used to be a daily habit spiralling out of control, but now I have a setback maybe once a week/fortnight/and around 3 weeks. So it’s something to be positive about.
That being said it’d be far far better if my relapses were only to just something on YouTube, rather than feeling guilty or “oh f##k it” and going onto the usual p.sites.

After all is said and done, I don’t want to relapse at all. I don’t want to empty my seed, but keep it, keep a clean mind, face, body, hair and strength, and mental strength.
I want to be sharp, funny, witty, kind and physically healthy, which I’ve noticed really does come from not realeasing my life creating, man essence :smile::+1:

Additionally : I also say “xyz” as a replacement for pmo. As I don’t want to use certain words while in the journey.
I don’t want NoFap, and other words associated with ‘the habit’ to be used a lot, and present in my mind.
“what we think about, we become”
Psychologically, I want the best strong, positive and potential greatness to be grown in my garden - that is my mind :wink:

Haha,… One more additional thing - I also want to take back control of words that were once innocent words that p# tries to dominate and own.

I remember a while ago, a man calling his dog, and instantly that name made me think of a women :smile: so, it’s useful to (when clean and good without being triggered) to take back these words, and mold back into their rightful owner.
Come = is to move / is to occur.

Pornography IS by definition, documented prostitution.

Such an industry does not have my consent to define the meaning of words for me.

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2nd day…All good…sharing code 0hlnku

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Grazie Amico per la tua chiara ed onesta esposizione… I’m now even more glad and happy to be part in this Daily Challenge. I wish to you and to all the Friends in this Diary a good Journey!

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Check in
Week 16, Monday
D8
All is good

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Checking in
Day 2 of Week 16, Tuesday
All Good

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Check in day 5 :no_mouth:
I edged yesterday because of arrogance but managed to hold myself :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

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