Check in - Day 4…Friday April 9th 2021
All good…Glory to god
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Check in - Day 6…Sunday April 11th 2021
All good…Glory to god
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I feel and an on day one again now.
The flesh does not die hard. After falling I wanted to gravel and it was tempting to fall into defeatist thinking but the Lord’s Word prevailed. I find have to obey the flesh and I don’t have to keep on defiling myself just because I feel.
I’m already back in a day and ready to be on my way.
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I’m on Day 2 now and glad to be back here. Ten more days to get back where I was. I can do it.
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Check in Monday 12th April
It doesn’t do any good, And just thinking about it makes me feel unwell. (we know what we do when we feel unwell) So don’t, And just shut that door
Pmo is puke, it doesnt need explaining 
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No it doesn’t. To be honest, I’ve really been struggling with wanting to hook up on top of my struggles with pmo. I had a relapse last night. The urges to act out in real life are sometimes much stronger then the urge to look at p and p almost becomes a way to stop doing anything more.
I need prayer. I feel last night with pmo.
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I got triggered right before my last post and feel just after it. How dumb. I need to be more careful Netflix shows.
Good thing, I want nothing to do with this anymore.
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We aren’t drawn to pmo-related things because of our ideas, but because deep down its a DRUG FIX
Dopamine is not a bad thing, But it’s what we do with it that counts (builds up)
Practice a few Japanese words everyday,
And you’ll have a bigger vocabulary at the end of the month
Learn to play piano scales correctly, daily and one at a time, And when you come to play Bach it will become much easier, and make much more sense
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Are you telling me to do this? Because I am learning Japanese and my ex/current partner (it’s complicated) a Bach fan and plays. We’re both struggling with pmo.
I had a royally bad week with many mess ups. Please pray for me.
This is not who I am.
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I’ve had exactly the same urges to hook up in the past or to act out in real life but I think that would be taking a porn addiction and making it much worse. I had contacted girls but I never actually met anyone and was being redirected by them to paysites so I’m not sure if they were genuine offers. I mean do you think hooking up would solve your problems? I think it would just deepen the dependency on porn
Now if it’s a genuine desire for a relationship well of course that is natural and a good thing but I wonder if us pmo addicts wouldn’t mess that up because of the addiction?
Overcoming this does seem to be a minefield I’m lacking commitment at the moment
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Speaking from past experiences, it definitely makes it worse. The reason I struggle with the desires sometimes are because I had those experiences in the past. In reality, for me, that whole thought process and past behavior was rooted in very low self-worth which in turn was rooted in sexual abuse when I was young.
I still need to face the depths of that with the Lord and walk through and out of it further than I have.
And miserable me, I fell into porn yesterday but managed to stop for l before climaxing.
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This addiction does seem to be very powerful but I don’t want to give it more power than it’s due either. Is there a lack of commitment on my part? Most definitely
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Disappointed with myself again. Knowing I need to change and wanting to change but finding myself to be very weak, undisciplined and lacking the commitment and drive that’s needed to overcome this. Tired of the same cycles. Going to have to make nofap a primary not a secondary goal once again.
I started an online bible course months ago and am now getting along to church regularly and I thought well that might fix the problem or help reduce the pmo’ing? Well it hasn’t
I’m unemployed and I have far too much time in which to fail. Fact is when I was employed I was failing about as much as now although I wasn’t full-time. Being busy obviously helps but it’s about mindset.
I’m sure even being full time would make time in which to fail even more 'precious ’ the whole scarcity increases the perception of porn and pmo time being valuable. I get that concept from EasyPeasy.
I have taken so many measures to make accessing porn more difficult but it isn’t enough. Ultimately accountability software, well it hasn’t worked for me. My accountability partners give up on me.
This is an embarrassing problem.
The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.
Often though the spirit is pretty half hearted too.
Easypeasy seems to suggest someone could just walk away from pmo? I’m not convinced that freedom will come without a big struggle
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I have been fallingv almost daily and yesterday was no different. Quite frustrating, honestly. At some point I fall into thinking, I’ve already wasted so much time so what’s the point? But what if we lived the rest of our life light that? How awful and what a waste! I am free and am walking in freedom. Why were l waste my life force away on pmo. There is so much more order, beauty, and fruitfulness to bring to the earth and the the world around us.
Day 0 restart and reboot, soft mode.
I’m two days back in and staying quarantined with a group of friends has been very helpful.
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Day Three
I am sometimes tempted but I have a new foundation and an enduring. It’s not really temptation, I don’t want to go back to that old way of living that just brings death.
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Check in Tuesday
@Forodwaith @Gk-00 @Rebooter81
Setting myself -and anyone who wants to join, a mini challenge.
Minimize phone/tech usage before bed, in the morning, and in alone moments, primarily.
I’ve fallen into the habit recently of not acknowledging God throughout the day.
I’ve lusted with my sight, And not chatting with my special friend tonight, nor taking the opportunity to get an early night, I edged.
Thanks and Glory to God 
Trust in Him, Daily
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I want in, how do you suggest we keep one another accountable?
Yesterday didn’t go so well but I’m still on the journey. I’ve been struggling with the same basic stuff.
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We can be accountable here, and via ‘line’.
I’ll check-in here daily and keep it brief & factual.
Yesterday wasn’t a great day.
After a long stressful day of work, I had a moment of looking at youtube/Insta for bad stuff. (and before bed) And then this morning; I caved in over the same.
I feel shame and a bit down, because it’s combined with other worries (that don’t need to be worries)
I will stick to this mini challenge to purge any unhelpful attitudes, be accountable, and start placing my Trust in God Daily (throughout the day) , and in all things.
Hope all you guys are well
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